day 322 of considering you one of my favourite fic authors of all time and doing mutliple cheer routines into your askbox
Awwww thank you!!! 🥰🥰🥰 I’m so glad you love my work. I’ve been going through a tough patch with work and life in general keeping me away from my fics, but soon I will get back to updating, I swear! Your support and cheering me on really helps me get my muse back. Thank you again!!!
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this may be an odd question, but what device or browser are you using to view AO3? your layout looks so nice and different than mine
It’s not odd at all! I’m just using a site skin on ao3 called Dark Verdigris by Ferager, it’s a public use skin that anyone can install! Hope that helps!
Stand up comedy is actually SUCH a good idea!!! Thank u i will now watch that!!! Also, hope you feel better soon!!!
im glad you think so! and thank you! i spent the evening giggling and now i feel better this morning having taken my meds. i appreciate the concern! <3
brokeback mountain anon — i'm perfectly fine with the asks being published! i don't mind NOT being anonymous in all honesty, i'm just a bit shy to talk directly off of anon (if that makes any sense lol). i actually made a side blog ( @elliskinnie ) specifically for left 4 dead so i can put all the spam stuff and posts on there (which was part of the reason for being on anon. i don't exactly like cluttering my main blog with a lot of variety) BUT i don't mind people KNOWING or FOLLOWING my main blog! would just rather keep asks, messages, and posts in that little corner!
so in short, it's perfectly okay to publish the asks! i don't mind NOT being anonymous! i would just rather have everything towards one blog... but thank you so much for the consideration of asking first! ☺️
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what if i cried on the floor 😭😭😭 also it's SO FUNNY that you put ellis as not being able to swim when i legit thought of that last night before i read your story omg
— from elliskinnie :3
Ellis not being able to swim has been a headcanon for me since like 2014, he said something during Swamp Fever, I can't remember exactly which line it was, but gave me the distinct impression he was not aquatically versed.
I didn't know you were the one sending me these!! thank you so much! <3 i'm so glad you're enjoying TSF, its such a passion project for me.
(also, sorry i havent replied to your other asks yet, i just havent been in the headspace and want to vibe with you more about our headcanons. i'll get back to ellis/keith rotting soon haha)
ALSO i am actually making a google doc with all of this information because ✨autism✨and they are my current hyperfixation 🙂↕️
Hello again! I'm publishing this ask because it was the least descriptive of the last three you sent me. If this is you reading, below the read more I have some questions about how comfortable you are with me sharing your asks? If you're anyone else reading, please politely move on! thank you! <3
Hi! So you spoke on being shy and I totally understand that! I want to respect your anonimity! But you've shared some things with me which are slightly personal and based on this ask, I worry if you were to write a fic one day of your own, people would be able to connect what you have told me to these asks here, and I simply don't want to disrespect your desire to be just that; anonymous.
I also would be bereft if I shared your asks and one day you desired to shed your anonimity, only for such personal things to have been shared publically wherein we've become close friends but also now the public knows personal things about us. I'm happy to share, I like to share in the wider sphere of the world, but I *like* to share and I don't want my share space to ever be so big that someone would contnue to be anonymous due to the public nature of our friendship. You know what I mean?
Overall, friendship makes me nervous. If you've read my fics, you've probably picked up a strain of abandonment issues and toxicity as the norm, that was my experience in the way back whens and now I really don't interact with people except on the internet. Even then, to my great detriment, generally I am an outspoken person with oft unpopular opinions. I simply wouldn't want association with myself to be the reason you remain anonymous past the expiration of your desire to do so.
Also, I wanted you to know I would gladly talk to you in direct messages or on discord! and continue to respect your identity much as we have been doing. I really enjoy hearing your thoughts and experiences, I love building the lore of characters both within my own head and the universes of my friends. I am very much a 'every dimension exists equally' person about fanfic, where *your* Ellis and Keith are just as valid as *my* Ellis and Keith and it's wonderful to compare and contrast our thoughts and ideas about them. So if ever you are comfortable with speaking to me directly, my inbox is a welcome space for you.
To conclude; I hope you see this message and understand it's in good faith, I want to continue our correspondences and I have a bit of neurodivergence of my own, so I'm really not sure how to proceed here; if you're comfortable with me sharing my thoughts and publishing your asks on my public profile, I'll do so! But if you want to come to me direct and continue chatting about our ideas more privately because it is a somewhat personal topic, that is also fair and I welcome you!
Love you, brokeback mountain AU anon. Hope to hear from you soon <3
the whole idea i had about keith going to ellis' house in the middle of the night after a fight with his father was 100% influenced by that taylor swift song... LOL
also i love your view of their relationship! mine is a bit different though. i imagine them SUPER close, like "finish each other's sentences" close, and they both know how much they love each other but refuse to actually admit it to themselves. like, constant longing glances and cuddles when they have sleepovers (they have constant sleepovers I KNOW IT) like, constant closeness that if one is without the other people are like "where's your other half?"
i agree with your view of keith being the class clown! i feel in a sense ellis is as well but leans more on the "popular" aspect simply because of how social he is which makes keith insanely jealous. not for the lack of attention from others but for the excessive attention towards ellis because he believes he's the only one that will ever truly know and understand him. (a bit toxic? maybe....) also believe they both have multiple girlfriends throughout their lives and it makes the other PISSED but it's passive aggressive. one mentions their current girlfriend and the other is like. "oh... okay... anyways..." LOL
I really love that our ideas are different!!! Keep them coming, it really makes me think and consider things!!!
It's been so long for me since I was that age LOL like over a decade haha so sometimes its hard for me to remember what it was like and most of my experience in these kinds of tortured repressed feelings is like 'we know we like each other but *cant show it*' style scenes. I love this idea though, it's almost clueless in the way they don't acknowledge what each means to the other, the all-over-each-other, same wavelength, constant contact and connection type of thing--- toxic perhaps, but oh so juicy!! >:3c
And now I want to interview each one of these girlfiends and ask them what they know, what they've seen! Which ones were willing beards and which ones spread rumors, hmmm? Fascinating!!
Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with me brokeback mountain au anon!! You titilate me!