#roka bleach

girl have social anxiety

mostly quiet and don't know what to do without someone telling her to do so

wanted to cry almost all the time but feels like she's already weak she can't cry and seems more weak

actually hate being treated as weak but is too scared to be brave

actually hates physical touch with strangers but wanted to be held gently by someone sometimes

hate herself

don't think she deserves anything at all

crave for actual love yet have abandonment issues

doesn't actually know how to smile

scratch herself out of anxiety and panic

girly doesn't know how to deal with people properly

mostly accept what is done to her out of fear of getting far worse

she never understand the reason why you're friend with her. she's a monster. a useless tool. an arrancar. the one who are supposed to be killed not..befriend with like this??

she loves yet hate how soft and vulnerable you are to her. she hates how she's friend with a human who probably don't even like her.

she's very shy and awkward in general. she don't really know what to do when you're sad or having some bad feelings.

even as her best friend she still a little shy about stuff. but not too much as before.

she's insecure about herself so please tell her how important she is to you.

she sees you as an important fragile little flower vase that she have to protect at all cost. you were her friend. a friend who actually doesn't see her as a monster and a tool.

helping an Arrancar is normal to her. but it wasn't normal when you started talking to her.

the first time you talked to her she always listen but never talk back, she only do talk when she was asked a question. other than that she never talk.

the second time you came with more injuries, Roka help you again and you started to talk to her again. she honestly was confused why are you talking to her. this time is the same as the first time. she listen but don't talk.

the third time she started to talk more.

then the talking and the injuries keeps happening to you. she was worried that she one time asked why do you keep getting so much injuries.

she was really worried with how much often you got hurt, but it feel nice to actually have someone to talk to, she wanted to call you friend but she feel like it isn't her place to decide if you're her friend.

until one day you call her your friend. she was shock. she froze and stay silent until you call out to her to get her attention.

she feel so happy and glad to have a friend..a nice friend who always talk to her..it feels really nice and..warm to her.