rocketmantis replied to your post āterrified, silent screamingā
ASH: MAKE THEM PAY (you money. for the significantly-above-minimum-wage type of work.)
rocketmantisĀ replied to your postĀ āterrified, silent screamingā
also, congrats for getting recognized for your skill etc but yikes, that is some anxiety-inducing tactics from them, wow.
nnnh, I want to be fair. my accounting of the situation is likely very influenced by the fact that I already have anxiety. the people are objectively lovely and very much want to see us succeed and provide a platform where both parties can benefit.
Iām still a bit growly over them not paying me. but, fuck it, itās an unpaid internship, basically. are they skeezy? yep. is it doing the thing where suddenly you have Not Intern responsibilities at intern not-pay? yep. do I have any platform to push back whatsoever? nope. I canāt quit this, or I lose my benefits. The only thing I can do is get anotherĀ job, and tbh a lot of aspects of this program are... nice, for the anxiety!brain. a) who gives a shit if I fail, itās work for the dole. b) who gives a shit if I slack off from time to time, itās work for the dole. c) ...you get the picture.
Itās not ideal. Iād like to be earning money with my apparently excellent skillset. But at the same time... if they donāt buy me, they canāt complain that they didnāt get what they paid for.