heeeeeeeey so how goes the post-apocalyptic morse code internet service? how goes the exciting fun depressiontimes? how go the odds of those things both having improved sufficiently to allow for stream tonight?
the internet is still absurdly post-apocalyptic, sadly :( I’ve done a bunch of testing and I can still barely put through 150 kbps, where the minimum needed for a stream that isn’t pixels and moontime is 600. I’m gonna ask my landlord to call the internet people, but I doubt it’s going to do much; they’re notoriously unhelpful and will probably try to tell us it’s our fault and then upsell us a ‘preorder’ for the NBN.
I’m super annoyed about this. I know I keep saying that, but I am really annoyed about this; I miss streaming so much and there are so many games I’m Waiting to play because I want to play them with the stream crowd hollerin’ at me. I don’t want to move, this place is super comfortable and I’ve finally settled into a good dynamic, but right now it’s kind of a race to see whether ‘internet improves one way or another’ or ‘saving up enough money to pay bond/first/last somewhere else’ wins out. I was talking to Cool Coworker about the situation yesterday and saying how dumb I felt complaining about something that felt so petty - but she just sort of blinked at me and went ‘but the internet is how you connect with people’ and, yeah. it’s important, I should be taking it seriously.
in better news, though, I’m feeling a lot better mentally. I’ve still been a bit absent from the internets because, in a feat of glorious timing, I came down with a head cold just after experiencing a couple days of glorious stability, but, well. I’m not waking up wanting to die anymore, I want to do things again, I left the house a couple times, I did A Load of laundry. which just makes it more frustrating that this is happening I WANT TO DO THINGS AAAAaaAAAA-
