#rkmga3

it wasn’t every day that elly decided to stay up till late in royal, or seocho’s building for that matter. she preferred to go back home, make herself a nice drink and watch movies with her two cats laying on top of her as she laid on the couch. she liked that a lot, she was becoming less and less of a workaholic and to understand that life was more than just being stuck in a studio all day everyday a year.

tonight, was different, tonight she was annoyed at herself. for the fact that she let herself slack of so much. she was pissed off more or less, at herself, at the company, at her ceo she had anger issues to vent out, and this time, she didn’t plan on breaking her violin at the back of the building and crying her eyes out before going ho,e to sleep it off.

she’s always made songs that were based off a break up, of being heartbroken by a guy, and lied to and cheated on, she may or may not completely blame minsoo for this, but it was different now. she just wanted to be aggressive and show people what they had missed by leaving her back in the royal basement.

maybe she was going overboard with how she was feeling, but there was this sudden rage she wasn’t quite sure how to deal with it, considering the fact that she has always been the calm and collected one, the one to always make sure everyone else is okay, but sh really didn’t have anyone to check up on her.

so, she could vent through lyrics and music.it was a nice choice, because she had been writing all the melodramatic lyrics she could thin off, because she felt discouraged by the fact that she wasn’t in the final line up for luxe. elly wasn’t happy with the outcome, for numerous reasons, but she was looking forward to seeing, what is the concept that luxe will have, and she wouldn’t fit. she wanted to know as soon as possible.

she was planning on leaving royal, because she was beginning to be aware that no matter how much she wanted to be an artist, not just an idol, but someone who would be seen as an actual artist and producer, royal wasn’t the place she was supposed to be. hyojin thought she was more stubborn that jieun, a lot more stubborn, a lot louder when it came to things that didn’t sit right with her, but even if she was two times a finalist, she was still no winner. 

and maybe, there was no winning for her under royal.

she really wanted to write a song for the royal boys, and show it so jiseob, after she recorded it with them. a song about wanting to live their life peacefully and enjoying what life brings them instead of  pushing themselves to  fit in some mold they can never fit. she wasn’t sure what their ceo was looking for in his trainees, but elly was more than aware, she didn’t have it. she still doesn’t know why she got an offer when she was in the mga’s, she doesn’t know why she even accepted it.

he should have chosen kangjoon instead, and let her go on with her life, until her next opportunity came. right now, elly wasn’t even sure she would get the opportunity to resign her contract. she wasn’t sure if she wouldn’t just be kicked out and everyone will move on with their lives, just like she will with hers.

however, she had one last plan before the five months finished.

show one song to so jiseob, and it was going to be this one, because she might have been emotional, most of the time on stage, when she got the chance, but now, she was going to be violent.