#rip boyd

Ok.

So, I went on Youtube today to listen to some background music while I did my homework, right? And I usually just listen to wordless music so that I don't get too distracted by the lyrics, so I'll just type in something random and go with that. Anyway, I did that like I always do, but about a half hour into it this one melody came on that sounded... familiar. I really couldn't place it at first so I tried ignoring it, thinking that perhaps it just sounded like a different song I had heard earlier. But as it kept playing, I just got more and more curious. The harder I tried thinking about where I had heard it before, the more puzzled I got. Finally, feeling a little frustrated, I clicked back onto the youtube page, and I felt like I had been punched in the heart.

The song that was playing turned out to be the song that plays when Boyd dies on Teen Wolf.

The video wasn't much; just the music playing with some still-pictures of Boyd, Derek and Erica. But let me tell you, it hurt. I'm not really sure how or why it happened, but as I kept listening and looking at it, I started crying. I was just taken back to that first time I ever saw Boyd and Erica die, and I just thought about how it's not fair. I can honestly say that Boyd and Erica were 2 of my favorite characters, and when they died I felt like I had been stabbed in the heart. And know what makes it worse? They never got a proper goodbye. Sure, they were mentioned again once or twice afterwards, but it's been 3 seasons (or season halves) since they died. Despite the fact that they weren't main characters, they were still characters. They both had parents. They both had friends. They both had strengths and weaknesses like every other characters on the show. I know not everyone loved them, but I did, and I'm sorry for ranting, but that song, one stupid little song, brought back a whole slough of memories that I'd nearly forgotten. And that makes me wonder if the people in Beacon Hills have also forgotten.

I also wonder what they'd be like today if they had survived. I'd love to think that they'd have done a bit of growing up, really gotten control of their abilities, learned new things about themselves. I'd also love to think that they'd have gone back to Derek and become his betas again, perhaps helping Derek heal over time. Maybe with their help, Scott's pack would have stood more of a chance against the dread doctors and Theo. Maybe one of them would have stopped Donovan from trying to kill Stiles, which would have also erased the possibility of Stiles accidentally killing Donovan. Perhaps they could have saved Stiles from bearing all of that guilt on his shoulders.

Then again, maybe not.

Perhaps they would have just died another way, or maybe they would have run off again. Or maybe they would have even turned against Scott's pack and tried to kill everybody off one by one. But you know what? We'll never know. We'll never know because they died way before their time. But at least they died fighting for something they believed in. Maybe the transformation into werewolves went to their heads a little at first (I'm looking at you, Erica), but in that short time they were locked in that vault, they did a bit of growing up. They knew they'd never get out if it was up to the Alpha pack. They knew they were more or less dead already. So they fought back.

So, even though it's been  few years since their deaths, I can honestly say that I'm still not over it. Maybe I'll never be, and you know what? That's ok. I don't want to forget them, and I dearly hope that their families, their friends, other people of Beacon Hills, never forget them either. But you know what would be nice? If on the last episode, I'm talking the very last episode of Teen Wolf, they had some sort of flashback to all the good characters that have died or that have left; Boyd, Erica, Allison... I know it probably won't happen, but maybe there will be someone out there who makes a beautiful video like that. I'd be forever grateful.

Sorry this post is so long, but I honestly couldn't have said all of what I needed to get out in anything shorter than this. Anyway, if you've made it to the end of this, thank you for lending an ear. I really appreciate it, and I guarantee that Erica and Boyd would appreciate it too.

I’m so sorry for your loss :(