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N4007 - Rags Jungle E.P by Pete Cannon N4 007

Pete Cannon - N4007 - Rags Jungle E.P.

The last guy who said that to me ended up sharing a bed with me in less than a month. (A few decent and fun hangouts out and about, fun casual conversation, and conveniently pretending our past never happened while I just so happened to have clear skin, a nice ass, and a great smile? Man, he was putty in my hands.)

And even another man, (the one I've done two different love spells on,) ended up confessing to me that he really loathed how I did petty things behind his back or said crude things directly to him.... but even then, he didn't care.

Why?

Pussy was bomb. And he craved it again. He admitted that would've never happened if he were a virgin still, but, covid + me being hot + for some reason, tinder won't allow him on the app + months of not having it = hair extensions, money for more spiritual supplies, and a delicious meal.

And he obviously got what he want. Hit me up a full week later to tell me how much he wants me again. The only problem was it was late at night when we talked about him getting me some good studio quality headphones, so he most likely had post-nut clarity between the hours of us chatting and him sleeping, soooo he put a pin in it.

But it won't be too hard to get him back. Hell, after what he's been through over me, and how I make him feel and get stuck in his head, its simple.

Almost considered another love spell this month, buuuuut he said he's cutting back on his addiction to sugar. So, not sure that making him some Pie Crust Love Notes with special spices and otherwise, will work. But hey, maybe on the right day, a casual platonic meet up and sliding him some, like "It's honey and sugar free jam" might do the trick. Something small and pleasant.

So long story short:

I've made several men go from ignoring my calls and treating me like crap, to men who would easily spend on me. The hornier and lonelier a man is, the easier. My ex, the Laptop Guy, hesitated on speaking to me, but considering he has not many friends other than me.... he gave in and acted like nothing bad ever happened. (It was tragic, the day we met tons of people told me 'He's a little weird, we aren't close. Wouldn't call us friends or anything'... these are people he's known for five fucking years! Same for the ex he was obsessed with, but whatever.)

Him saying his reasons for not wanting more showed me exactly what he wants... Something noncomplicated, different from our past, but still reminiscent of good times.

He said himself that he never loses sexual attraction, especially to women he's dated or already been with. He just needs to be comfortable with the idea of it happening without drama or our friendship hurt. So pleasant conversation, but not pretending as if I'm afraid to be myself; being overly sweet is yuck. Nope, I'm gonna talk about sex, memes, whatever, as if he's a friend. Either he adapts and enjoys me treating him like a friend, or he acts worthy of girlfriend level reception.

I'll talk about going on dates with sugar daddies and make it clear I have options; that's always worked with these types of men around me. "Just friends" until they see me moving on to better, not into them, then they suddenly want to impress me or reel me away from who I'm actually around. It's so odd but men never make sense.

So, gonna stop caring TOO heavily about what he says. No more holding my tongue about sugaring, dates, whatever. No more meekly avoiding talking about sex and asking about his day, when he usually ignores my texts to watch porn.

Playing up on being his form of stress relief. The girl he actively loves to look forward to.

Plus, me having clearer skin, slimmer, ass fatter, and trying to stay on routine for my teeth whitening.... I can do it, with ease. (And my hair being straightened has wowed people; so that uniqueness would stun him.)

It'll be super easy.

No more being depressed or sad over him. He's still insistent on being in my life and either we end up as friends, I forget him entirely, or he puts his best foot forward to re-woo me again. (Which of course, he will never have the privilege of sex, or me as his girlfriend, without me having everything I want from him.)