#rileyrants

You were doing what makes you happy.

I love seeing you happy.

Your smile is infectious.

And dont smile often.

You spent time with me,

And ate my food.

But thats fine.

Im happy to share.

I just want you to take care of yourself,

So I dont mind sacrificing some things for you.

Jeez, I love you.

I swear everytime I see you,

I get heart eyes.

I miss you so often,

That when we're actually together,

It never feels long enough.

I get lost in your eyes,

Eyes that you hate.

But I love everything about you.

Your chocolate brown eyes.

Or maybe theyre cherry stained wood.

Either way, theyre gorgeous.

Speaking of gorgeous,

Your voice.

I could listen to you for hours.

And i have.

You used to talk about everything.

Sometimes it didnt make sense to me.

But they were things you were passionate about.

So i lent an ear.

I leaned on your shoulder. Twice, actually.

You didnt shrug me off.

Or push me away.

You supported me.

Let me relax.

And I felt comfortable

Letting my guard down

Once again.

I got hugs tonight.

I love your hugs.

Your hugs make me feel safe.

You are comfort to me.

You are my safe place.

I miss you.

And I love you.

I would be so happy to just be able to

Lay in your embrace,

And have you sing to me.

I could die happily in your arms.

Youre just so perfect for me.

I wish you would stay in my life forever.

But I know that's unrealistic.

Just stay by my side, as long as you can.

I think I've finally come to terms with my feelings. I think ive finally made peace with the fact that you will never love me the way I love you.

At first when you told me you would rather date my best friend if given the chance, i was hurt. I felt like my heart had shattered. I felt betrayed. But i still continued to love you, for some reason.

After some time has passed, and ive had a moment to digest the information, and reflect on it, I am happy for the both of you.

You would treat her the way she deserves to be treated. You would take care of her. You would make her happy, in a way that I dont think you could ever make me. And I am okay with that. I am finally okay with it.

Because if you love her, abd she loves you, you'll both be happy. And you'll both still be in my life. And honestly, I will be happy as long as i can continue to be present in both of your lives, and to be able to call you both my best friends.

I love you so much. And i will never stop loving you. But I do believe my love for you has evolved into more of a familial feeling than one of romance or attraction.

I adore you so much. I am very proud of the man you have become. And how far you've grown since you initially came into my life.

I never believed in saints,

even growing up in the Catholic Church.

until I met you.

and heard you sing.

you’re the only saint i believe in

but you may also be an angel

I’m not too sure which.

I love hearing your voice.

but I hate it.

because it reminds me why I fell for you.

And it reminds me why I love you.

But you will never love me

the same way I love you.

so I stop listening.

stop replaying the songs in my head.

but I can’t forget you.

no matter how hard I try.

I can’t remember my name from day to day,

or tell you what I did last week.

but one thing stays constant.

and that’s you.

ive never forgotten you.

i never plan to.

but I hate that I love you.

I shouldn’t love you.

I don’t know why I do.

because you’re sweet?

smart?

handsome?

gorgeous, more like it…

or is it because your charm far surpasses

those around you?

my own Prince Charming…

but you’ll never see me as Cinderella.

or any other,

princess or otherwise.

who’s to say why I fell.

or why I keep falling.

im just your Barbie doll.

here to use, and throw away,

when I no longer suit your needs.

but you’ll never be Ken.

at least not to me.

and it breaks my heart,

watching you love others,

day in and day out,

the way you’ll never love me.

now, don’t get me wrong.

we have a special bond.

a cosmic connection.

the universe wants us in each other’s lives.

but I can’t even begin

to imagine why.

and you’ll never know.

because I’m to chicken.

too shy.

and you’re too blind.

maybe you are Prince Charming,

but I’m just rapunzel.

locked away from you,

while you wander.

blindly through life,

ignorant to what’s around you.

while I watch from my tower,

far far away.

so I’ll replay the songs,

and keep them on repeat.

listening to you sing,

and sweeping away reality.

while the world fades to nothing,

and crumbles around me.

I’ll still keep you close

near and dear to my heart.

forever you shall stay.