you gave up the role of judge a long time ago, because he made you see the good in people. he made you a better person in death, somehow. you wanted to do good for him, bring everyone together for him, keep these bonds as tight as possible for him. for him. for him. you do not hesitate for a second to bring him back up, sit him on the chair but this time you donโt get up, youโre at his level because heโs an equal, he always was, you were just too blind to see it. you would hug him but rejection is one of your fears so : you just stand there, at his level trying to dry his tears.
ย your touch is gentle, even if itโs not you itโs nothing like you but you put in efforts, those that shouldโve been done a long time ago. doesnโt matter, at least heโs here โย I shouldnโt have let you go there on your own, itโs my fault.โ you donโt ย especially remember the death, you just vividly remember his body, holding him and telling him goodbye, but no response, it hurts to think about it. It hurts that he thinks he was alone. when he wasnโt, he never was and wouldnโt be anymore.
ย โย Iโll make them pay. whoever did this to you Iโll kill them. Iโll end them.ย ย โ itโs not rational you know it but for him you would move the world, turn it upside down and make it your bitch. โย and I, want to thank you.ย ย โ a strange statement, youโre aware but you have to say it โย I, you did a lot for me even if you.. even if you werenโt here I, kept fighting for you, kept fighting for Mutsuki, for Saiko, you did more for me than anyone else and I, Iโm sorry that I.. you left us without knowing how much you mean to me, Shirazu.ย ย โ ย sometimes you thought that you shouldโve been the one to die, he deserved so much, and he will get everything he wants. youโll make sure of it.ย
โย saiko is close, sheโs in a bakery somewhere, we can go see her together, weโll see everyone, Iโll get you out of here. ย โ he is going home, he deserves it, he shouldโve never left, itโs your fault. your mistake. but thereโs no time to blame anybody.ย
Because at least he is here.