I'm so fucking mad that I still think about that asshole customer i ranted about a few days ago. or, well, mad is the term i want to use, but honestly not knowing what he said to whoever he ranted to makes me very anxious. I've never been in trouble with management before. I'm irrationally scared they'll fire me and i leave for school in august so getting a different job this close to leaving would be impossible. I know my managers like me, but i cant help it. also because i should have just given him my trashcan. this anxiety from being yelled at wasn't worth it. yeah he was in the wrong in the end, treating me so horribly, but this was such a stupid STUPID hill to die on. i didn't even do it maliciously, i just didn't give him my trash can. and he yelled at me. im back at work monday and im so worried somebody is going to say something to me. im worried im going to see that customer again. i don't even remember his face but still. even if im not in trouble i don't want to hear the 'next time just-' bullshit. yeah, fine. i know. i already know. next time roll over and do what they want. honestly if i think about it too long my throat starts closing up and my voice changes and that was the worst part. so i really really really dont want to have that talk. yesterday after that "interaction" i couldn't sound normal for the next customers. i had to pretend i had allergies just to get by. i wish i had thicker skin so that i could brush this off but clearly not. would they check the cameras? see my reaction, what i said? everything? that's so embarrassing.