crushes & crashes
➳ You have a crush on Heeseung, and Jay has a crush on Dohee, and it’s exactly your crushes who confess their love to each other, and it’s exactly you and Jay who happen to walk in on their confession.
➳ Characters: high school student!Jay x high school student!reader/you
➳ Genre: high school au, festive au, ball au, comedy, fluff
➳ Words: 5.9k
➳ Taglist: @gloriouscollectiveobject (you can sign up for the taglist by taking part in my survey)
➳ A/N: Dedicated to @dat-town because how can I not dedicate my first Jay story to you? ❤️
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“I like you.”
“I like you, too.”
That would be all too cute and romantic and unicorns and sunshine if the guy was Park Jongseong instead of Lee Heeseung, and if the girl was you instead of Oh Dohee. Because you have a crush on Heeseung, and Jay has a crush on Dohee, and it’s exactly your crushes who confess their love to each other in the hidden corridor beside the school storage room, and it’s exactly you and Jay who happen to walk in on their confession.
What a boomer, really. If Miss Ryeong hadn’t selected you and Jay to pick up the giant world map and the Korea posters for the Geography class right in that minute, just for the next class, exactly on 14th December aka Hug Day in Korea aka the day couples show their affection towards each other with a hug or with a confession that ends up in a hug, you wouldn’t have witnessed the confession for yourself.
Both your and Jay’s steps falter when you hear the words and catch sight of the two students in the secluded corridor (students only ever come here if they are ordered by a teacher to grab something from the storage room just like now), and at first, you fail to notice anything about the boy’s behaviour because you are too shocked by the sight in front of you.
You have told yourself that maybe, just maybe, this isn’t a one-sided crush because you and Heeseung have been talking more and more lately, but it seems you’ve seen it all wrong. Maybe he was there for the after school study sessions because he wanted to talk to Dohee, not because he wanted to discuss the homework with you. Maybe he signed up to be an organiser for the winter ball because Dohee was the class president, and she needed a helping hand, not because you also applied. Maybe he sat at your table in the canteen because Dohee was usually around, not because of you.
Oh gosh, how could you have been so blind?
You may have been oblivious to all the signs, hence you’re the one to blame, but it doesn’t mean that it hurts any less. In fact, it hurts even more because it seems like you have seen something into Heeseung’s actions that you really shouldn’t have. It would have been one thing if you had just gotten to know about the news through your classmates, but to hear their confession in person? That’s just brutal, especially because it’s your first ever crush. To be precise, your first ever one-sided crush, it seems.
To make matters worse, Jay manages to kick into the nearby broom (remember, you’re in front of a storage room), and the two lovebirds distance themselves from each other as if they’ve been caught, staring at the two of you, wide-eyed.
“We didn’t hear-” You’re trying to say that you didn’t hear anything, hoping to save the four of you from further embarrassment even though your words would be a part of a big fat lie, but the boy beside you doesn’t seem to cooperate.
“We won’t tell anyone,” he manages to burn your plan to the ground with just a few of his words, and you really, really have the urge to facepalm. Or to evaporate. Because it’s just so damn awkward idling in front of the storage room, neither of you knowing what to do because now it’s out in the open that you’ve heard their confession (and saw them hugging each other too), and clearly, that’s not how Heeseung and Dohee planned this to go.
There’s no bell or a nosy teacher to save you from the awkwardness, and even though you’re usually terrible at dissolving the embarrassment in the air, this time your broken heart is more desperate to escape this situation that it is afraid that you would say the wrong thing, making everything even more awkward.
“We’re just here for some maps for Geography,” you let them know matter-of-factly, immediately reaching for the storage room’s door knob. You don’t wait for anyone to reply, you open the door wide, walking into the place as fast as if your life depended on him.
You hear the door close behind you after a few seconds, and Jay indeed follows you, although with a very disheartened expression. At that time, you can’t quite put your finger on his behaviour as he seems surprised, but it’s not something you can blame him for.
“Heeseung and Dohee... Who would have thought…” He mumbles under his breath while he’s making his way towards the maps, and you can’t disagree with him either, so you merely nod to his words. Maybe if you hadn’t been so blind, you could have seen the signs, but it’s too late now... You were too late.
You two pick up the maps quickly, and head back to the classroom. Thankfully, Heeseung and Dohee aren’t in the corridor when you get out of the storage room, but when you and Heeseung lock eyes once you get back to the classroom, you can feel your heart being shattered into tiny little pieces. Is this really how first loves should go? Already with a heartbreak before anything could happen?
Jay still can’t process what he has seen and heard earlier that day even though it’s almost the last class of the day, it’s PE on top of that, and the girls are running around the football field that’s occupied by the boys playing football, so it’s a chill class. Their school has this huge indoor sports field that comes in handy in winter when no one likes to work out outside, and the senior year students are no exception.
Jay is glad that they don’t have strength training that day because that would really just top the list of his unpleasant surprises. He can just mindlessly kick into the ball when it’s around him and run a bit from goal to goal, it’s not like he’s the ace of football anyways. Of course, it’s Heeseung who’s the best. That boy is the top of the class, a born athlete, applauded for his good looks and manners, so really, he’s the dream of every girl, and apparently, the dream of Jay’s crush. How could Jay even dare to challenge him? That would be ridiculous! He shouldn’t have even thought about standing a chance with Dohee. After all, Dohee and Heeseung are like a match made in heaven. Jay, on the other hand, isn’t exceptionally smart or exceptionally good at sports, so what these two could talk about would probably seem like a foreign language to him.
The more he thinks about it (even though he shouldn’t), the angrier he is at himself. What kind of a fool would even think about being liked by Oh Dohee when he’s like Jay? Gosh, he’s so pathetic, he knows, but what can he do about it? He can’t control his heart and his feelings, and it’s time to admit that he has lost against Lee Heeseung.
Jay huffs as the realisation hits him yet again and kicks into the ball with all his might, hoping that he could at least score a goal against Heeseung’s team because he shouldn’t lose this match if he has already lost that day. However, Jay manages to kick the ball so hard that when it flies out of the field (missing the goal by a tiny bit), it hits one of the girls who are currently jogging behind the goal... Right at her face.
Everyone stills for a bit, and Jay’s first thought is that he managed to aim right at his crush’s face, and now he really should dig his own grave because he has done something unforgivable.
On the other hand, it’s you who has been hit by the ball, and it’s your nose that starts bleeding, not his crush’s which is just a tiny bit better than if it were to be Dohee. The situation still sucks, obviously, but Jay is there in no time, panting as he asks:
“Are you okay?” He knows it sounds dumb, but you appreciate it nevertheless because at least he’s not a jerk about it. So you nod, trying to hold your hand to your nose, so that the blood wouldn’t be dripping everywhere.
“How could she be okay? Take her to the infirmary immediately!” Mr. Jung orders the boy who wouldn’t object yet you would, but the PE teacher gives you such a pointed look that you dare not go against his words.
So you and Jay walk side by side through the corridors until the infirmary, and it’s such a déjà vu feeling that you almost expect Heeseung and Dohee to pop up at a corner, hugging each other, even though the boy is on the field playing football and Dohee is running around the field with the other girls. Perks of having a crush on your classmate is that you can see them all the time, and the cons is that you can see them all the time (even when they confess to somebody else).
Once you get inside the infirmary, the lady cleans up the mess around your nose, examines it and gives you tissues to help with the bleeding. Then, she excuses herself to go and get a pack of ice from the administration office because they have a fridge where they keep ice packs.
“I’m so sorry. It wasn’t on purpose,” Jay apologises immediately, running a hand through his jet-black locks, eyes full of remorse. You sigh, pitying him and pitying yourself for ending up in such a situation again, but you know it’s not his fault.
“It’s okay. I guessed that it wasn’t intentional. What reason would you have for hitting me in the face?” You joke lightly, trying to dissolve the solemn atmosphere, but even you feel ashamed by your attempt because you’re the least in the mood for joking around.
“This day really can’t get any worse, huh?” He huffs, scratching the back of his neck, and you can’t help but agree (even though he’s only thinking out loud).
“First, Heeseung’s confession, then this…” You sigh, looking out of the window for a few seconds. You feel like you wouldn’t be surprised if it started raining because this morning was the first time in a while when you didn’t bring an umbrella, and if life keeps throwing such calamities at you, then you wouldn’t be in for a surprise if being hit by a ball wouldn’t be the last unfortunate thing happening to you that day.
“Wait…” Jay breaks the momentary silence a bit tentatively, and you turn your head towards him, curious. “Do you perhaps... you know... have a crush on Heeseung?”
He puts together the pieces with a bit of uncertainty, and you realise that your previous wording gave you away. There’s no way you could save yourself from this, especially after you open your mouth to deny it, yet nothing comes out, so you just stare at him open-mouthed as the seconds roll by.
“Wait! Then, do you have a crush on Dohee?” You ask as the thought hits you, and you think back to how disheartened the boy was beside you when you heard the two students’ confession. You assumed that it was merely because he didn’t see that coming, but could it be because he likes the girl whom your crush likes?
“Ah, no, no, I don’t... What? Why would I? Pff…” Jay snorts, but the way he jumbles over his words gives him away. Someone as confident and eloquent in his speech as the boy himself doesn’t really mess up his speaking unless he’s nervous or lying. And well, he could be both if he was talking about his crush.
“Was it obvious that I just lied?” He exclaims when he catches onto your deadpan expression.
“Yeah, a bit.”
You two are silent for a moment, processing the fact that you two out of all people were the witnesses of the confession between your crushes. You wouldn’t be surprised if a few other guys had a crush on Dohee because she’s smart, pretty and confident, and Jay wouldn’t be surprised if other girls had a crush on Heeseung because he’s every girl’s dream (and probably every mother’s dream).
“I’m sorry, that sucks.”
“I’m sorry for you, too,” the boy replies immediately, and it’s just so bad. Saying sorry for each other, but at least you two can understand each other’s feelings. Or well, you’re the closest to understanding it out of all people.
The nurse comes back in that moment, and she furrows her eyebrows when she sees you two sitting there in the room as if you have been run over by something.
“Come on! Are you two really that sad that this happened?” The lady inquires in an almost mother-like tone, and you could laugh at how innocent her question is, but you really don’t feel like laughing.
So you just shake your head, and Jay does the same, and it’s just so unbearably awkward that you’re glad that the nurse doesn’t ask more questions. Instead, she hands you the pack of ice, and tells you that you can keep it with you and take it back the next day. Additionally, she writes you an excuse letter for leaving school early that day, and as she’s handing you the paper, she looks at Jay, and writes another for him, too.
“But-” The boy tries to protect, but the woman merely shushes him.
“Just take it! Others would fake their death for me just to get it,” she mentions with a knowing smile, and so you two leave the infirmary together with the excuse to go home early, and maybe, it’s really for the best. You don’t have to suffer through a Maths class which Dohee and Heeseung would probably both nail anyway. You would feel heartbroken if either of them gave the correct answer to a question.
As you’re walking back to the changing rooms, you stop dead in your tracks when you hear something. As you look out of the windows in the corridor, you let out a whimper.
“I can’t believe it!”
“What is it?” Jay asks, perplexed, and you point at the raindrops dotting the window. Just exactly what you needed.
“It’s raining, and obviously, today is the day I forgot my umbrella at home.”
“I can lend you mine. Or we can go together until the bus stop if you’re going that way. After all, we can both leave now, right?” he offers casually, and you’re just about to protest when he holds up his hands, silencing you. “Take it as a way to make up for hitting you with the ball.”
He says it so desperately that you don’t have the heart to say no. He looks like a sad puppy with those achingly twinkling eyes, those messy jet-black locks and the ghost of a smile on his lips, telling tales about the pain of the day behind him. You probably look somewhat similar, especially with the pack of ice in your hands, so you give in, telling him that you would change back into your school uniform and gather your stuff from your locker before meeting him again at the entrance.
Having an interaction with Jay for the third time that day isn’t as awkward as the first two. Or well, it wouldn’t be if it weren’t for his stomach growling from time to time as you’re walking to the bus stop. Feeling pretty sorry for him for having him keep the umbrella above your head and feeling sorry for you too after today, you blurt out without much thinking:
“We can stop by the corner store if you want. I’m also pretty hungry,” you admit a bit nervously, keeping the fact to yourself that you skipped lunch because you didn’t feel hungry after getting to know that your crush likes someone else. Some might call you overly emotional and dramatic, but what could you do? You really did like Heeseung, and that scene in front of your eyes really did hurt, but now you were also really hungry, so no more skipping meals over heartbreak.
“For real? Are you not saying this just because you found it awkward how my stomach grumbled?" Jay inquiries directly, and it’s the first time that day that you actually let out a giggle.
“For real. Now, let’s go eat something!" You prompt him with a smile, and he spares you a few more suspicious looks, but he seems to believe you once you grab your favourite instant noodle pack and also a sandwich, ready to dig into your sandwich while you wait for the noodles to soak up the boiling water.
You love sitting inside these stores, waiting for your ramyeon to be ready, and even though you’re usually alone or with your little sister (you have an older and a younger sister, too) who’s in her growing phase, so she craves noodles a lot of times after school, you don’t mind being around Jay this time.
You take your seats by the window, looking out at the rainy scene, and as you’re thinking about how the PE class is nearing its end by now, you can’t help but ask:
“Since when did you have a crush on Dohee? If you don’t mind me asking, of course,” you offer because you don’t want to burden him with an invasive question. To prove that, you tell him about how Heeseung helped you in your junior year when you were visibly struggling during a science experiment, and he ended up being your science partner for the whole year. You gradually became more and more enamoured by him, and it’s been a constant fall since then.
The boy tells you that it started for him in junior year too when he saw the girl working hard for the school trip, arranging the wooden houses for the students, and making last minute adjustments to help their homeroom teacher. Since she was the class president, he always looked up to her and to her dedication, and he even signed up to help with the winter ball because of her.
“No way! I signed up for that because of Heeseung!” You chirp in, and Jay’s eyes widen in surprise. After bathing in your mutual understanding towards the other’s choice though, you both retreat to your nostalgic, bittersweet self quickly, no wonder Jay blurts out:
“I guess we now have to bear the consequences of that, too. We’ll probably have to see those two being all lovey-dovey as we’re decorating the sports hall for the ball.”
“At least, it’s not today. Today is already bad enough,” you point out, your lips curling into a sad little smile. You know it’s just to hide the pain, but smiling sadly is still better than crying your eyes out (although you’ll probably do so when you watch the next episode of your currently watched kdrama because your single ass won’t be able to bear the second male lead syndrome resembling your life all too well).
“Yeah, and I don’t know about you, but it sucks less because someone knows how I’m feeling,” Jay admits in between two bites from his sandwich, and you hum while you’re inhaling your ramyeon. He’s damn right about that, and the fact that he voices it out loud makes you feel a bit better, too.
Just like the rest of your conversation with the boy that makes you forget about why you ended up at the corner store that day. He makes you forget about the painful encounter with the ball and the even more painful confession you heard in the morning. Sure, the atmosphere is still a bit melancholic, you can almost feel this feeling hovering above the two of you, but you feel lucky that after all the calamities, you can find some peace and quiet. And someone who can share his umbrella with you on your way to the bus stop because let’s be honest, that’s important, too!
So stomach full and lips curled into a genuine smile, you thank the boy for his assistance after you empty your cup of noodles and finish your sandwich and after you get to the end of your conversation, the sky already darkening outside. You might have been excused to leave school early, but you would still go home later than usual, not like you mind. You feel like the day beside Jay (quite literally) has mended your broken heart a bit.
The worst thing about being in the festive season is not exactly being in the festive mood. They say that it’s the most beautiful time of the year, but not for you, nor for Jay, not after being witnesses of the confession of your crushes.
Yet, you can’t do anything about it, the winter ball is coming up, and since both you and Jay have signed up to help out, you have to go and help out no matter even if it’s the last thing you would like to do. It’s fine until you catch sight of Heeseung and Dohee smiling at each other and the girl blushing whenever the boy is close to her to assist her, and it’s fine until the others start cooing around them (because obviously the two couldn’t hide their feelings towards each other, and they confirmed their relationship in front of the class a few days after their confession). You can’t help but imagine how it could have been you, but you guess that Jay is the same, seeing his dreamy expression when he averts his eyes to the new couple.
“Wanna help me put up these garlands?” You nudge the boy in the side, partly because you want to distract him, so he wouldn’t feel so bad and partly because you actually need help. You need someone to hold the ladder while you put them on, and the boy gives in with a sigh, but you can feel that his thoughts are somewhere else based on the way he looks out of his head.
You start putting up the garlands diligently, making your way around the room with Jay’s assistance. After you put on another one in very vivid colours, you look down at the boy holding the ladder, staring bitterly at Dohee making silly poses for Heeseung who takes pictures of her. Your heart sinks at the sight. Maybe he thinks no one’s watching him (just look how you hope no one catches onto you gazing at Heeseung from time to time), but you do, and it’s difficult to not feel heartbroken over his expression. Especially because you know how it feels.
You let out a sigh, and take a step down the ladder, making an attempt to move on with the decorations quickly, so you two can leave the place equally quickly. However, as you take the next step, you miscalculate the landing, and your right foot touches only the edge of the rung, meaning that you lose your balance, falling down abruptly (and not at all graceful).
You land with a loud thud, but instead of the ground, you land on a softer surface. Suspicious, when you open your eyes to see what it is, your heart skips a beat. It’s Jay. You landed on him, and he landed on his back, and the loud thud was probably his head hitting the floor.
Your eyes are probably eyes wide as the boy’s when you look at him, the close proximity taking your breath away. You never noticed the mole around his eyes or the different shades that collide in his dark, deep orbs. You never noticed how elegant the arch of his nose is, or how perfectly carved his jawline seems. You never noticed how fluffy his jet-black locks are, and how - even despite his disheveled state - handsome he is.
“Oh my gosh, are you okay?” You hear someone ask from behind you, and that’s when you and Jay both come back to your senses. You awkwardly push yourself off the boy while he kindly helps you steady yourself before he also pushes himself off the ground, though with a hiss.
“Are you okay? You must have hit your head badly,” you exclaim at the noise, and take a step closer to the boy to examine his head, but the movement just makes the whole situation even more awkward. Since when were you so awkward around Jay? But the boy is the same, and it doesn’t help the situation either.
“It’s fine,” the boy tries to shrug it off nonchalantly, but you’re not that lenient. Neither is Heeseung, it seems, as he walks up to the two of you, worried, Dohee following him closely.
“You should go to the infirmary. We’ll finish the garlands, don’t worry about it!”
“Yeah, you two can go. You’ve already helped enough,” Dohee chirps in, and as the kind class president as she is, she’s thankful for your work even though you’ve probably done only half of what you should have.
Their words kind of warm your heart and break it at the same time. The way they look at you two makes you think that Heeseung is really better off with someone like Dohee. They are the ones who can make each other happy, not you and Jay, and while it sucks, they seem kind of cute together. Really, you can’t deny that, and this scene is just another proof of that.
So not wanting to make a fuss, you and Jay head to the infirmary together, and you can’t stop apologising to him on the way.
“It’s fine. You can say we’re even now after I’ve hit you with the ball. The umbrella wasn’t enough compensation anyway,” he protests coolly after about your tenth apology, and you find yourself speechless, not having any more reason to argue. Thus, you nod, letting silence take over the two of you until you arrive at the infirmary and the nurse bellows:
“You two again?”
You explain to her what happened, and she shakes her head as if she couldn’t believe how unlucky the two of you are. Well, you can’t believe it either. Nevertheless, she prepares a pack of ice for Jay, going to the administration office for it just like last time. Maybe it’s because you two were unlucky enough to need ice for your injuries, but you wonder why the infirmary doesn’t have its own fridge with packs of pre-prepared ice.
As this thought goes through your head, Jay clears his throat, a bit awkward.
“You know, actually, they seem perfect for each other,” he blurts out quietly as if he’s ready to admit his defeat, yet doesn’t want to say it out loud. You don’t even need to be told who he refers to.
“I was actually thinking the same while we were dealing with the garlands.”
“Funny how I’ve wanted to ask her to go to the winter ball with me, and just imagine how awkward she would have felt if I asked her, and she was hoping to go with Heeseung. Which she will probably do now,” he admits, and lets out a bitter laughter. His confession is so sudden that you don’t even have time to be shocked because it just comes out so quickly. You applaud him for his bravery because you aren’t sure you would have dared to admit that you were hoping you wouldn’t go alone either if it weren’t for him, but after he does so, it isn’t that awkward to admit it yourself.
As always, the nurse seems to come just at the right time, and you don’t know how much she has heard, but after handing the pack of ice to Jay, she looks at you two and suggests:
“You two should go to the ball together!”
As absurd as it seems at first, it doesn’t seem like a terrible idea later on, yet you don’t say anything about it that day, not even when you two grab your stuff, take the same bus for a while and bid your goodbye when he hops off the bus first. You realise you get home that day with a somewhat lighter heart.
The more he thinks about it, the less weird the idea seems, so when Jay actually asks if you want to go to the winter ball with him (to save both of you from the embarrassment of going alone), you say yes without much contemplation. After all, he’s quite a nice guy, and after your very unfortunate and close encounter with him, something bubbles up inside of you that you’ve thought died with your crush turning out to be one-sided.
However, you don’t give it too much thought, and just think of this whole winter ball thing as something you can overcome quickly and thankfully less embarrassed now that you have someone to go with. Your determination to not think about how gorgeous he looked from up-close is thrown right out of the window as soon as you two meet at school, and he shows up in an elegant suit and cotton pants. It looks like his whole outfit was tailored for him, and he even styled his hair, parting it sideways. You open your mouth to drop a compliment, but he beats you to it.
“You look really pretty,” he says genuinely, and you go speechless at his unwavering confidence. You didn’t bother to look for a new dress, you merely decided to go with the dark blue one you wore for your older sister’s graduation ceremony, and it was a quick choice even back then. There’s nothing extra about your dress, not even about your high heels, the only part you put some effort in was your hair, so really, you didn’t expect him to make a comment on it.
“But won’t you be cold on your way back home?” Jay inquires, tilting his head to the side. Once again, you find yourself speechless at his thoughtfulness, but try to pull yourself together quickly.
“It’s fine. My sister will pick me up when I tell her to come.”
“That’s good.” He nods briefly, prompting you to go inside the sports hall where the ball is actually held. You nod, and follow him inside.
Yet, for the rest of the night, you can’t help but notice all the little things that Jay does to make it a better night than you’ve expected it to be. He holds doors for you, he pours punch for you first, he suggests sitting down when he notices you turning your ankles in your high heels, he requests your favourite song for you after you two start complaining about the awful songs being played by the DJ, and he suggests leaving when he catches you rubbing your eyes more.
Truth to be told, you wouldn’t mind staying longer because it’s great getting to know more about Jay, his dreams, his interests, his childhood, his family, even about his taste in fashion. No matter what he says, you find yourself being drawn to it, and you wouldn’t mind getting to know more. Which is weird since you haven’t felt this way towards anyone before developing a crush on Heeseung, but that’s exactly why it’s scaring you. You don’t want to fall head-on yet again, plus he caught onto it well, you’re actually pretty exhausted, so you call your sister, telling her that she can come now, and leave the sports hall with Jay.
“We can give you a lift. It really wouldn’t be a bother,” you offer as you two walk towards the entrance, remembering that he goes the same way home as you do, he lives even closer to school than you do. Even though he initially objects and you let him, your sister suggests the same when he sees the boy beside you by the stairs outside of school. The boy doesn’t protest when he’s offered the second time, and gets in the car with you.
Thankfully, your sister doesn’t make it awkward by asking anything about Jay (even though you haven’t told her about him before), she inquires about the ball instead and starts reminiscing about her own. Somewhere along the way, it turns out that Jay’s older brother and your sister are actually studying under the same department at the same university, and the car ride seems more than comfortable with such topics. It’s funny how easily your sister gets along with Jay, much like how you seemed to hit it off with him from the start - even though it was over mutual heartbreak.
Despite your sister asking about the boy after you give him a ride home, she doesn’t push the topic further when you tell her that he’s a great guy and you don’t know what’s going to happen to the two of you, but you enjoyed your night with him. And it’s no lie, you really did enjoy your night with him. It turned out way better than you could have thought so.
After the winter ball, things start to shift between you two. You’ve already exchanged numbers prior to the winter ball, so you can easily message each other during winter break, wishing each other merry Christmas and a happy new year. Then, random texts came from random moments - such as the time he’s going to the mall with his family and the song that you’ve agreed was probably the worst song that year came on the radio, or the time an ad came up for you with his favourite fashion brand, and you’ve thought of him because before getting to know him, you didn’t even know this brand existed.
Slowly and naturally, as you two are talking more and getting to know each other more, winter turns into spring, and the months until your senior year exams become fewer and fewer. You find yourself spending more time with Jay as time goes by, and your sister can’t even help but give you a knowing glance whenever you two talk and she asks about the boy. It’s all too natural this way, and falling for him seems steady and serene. It’s not as quick and reckless as with Heeseung, but that’s exactly how you know that it’s more real, that it has more potential to blossom into something more.
So when you two have a random conversation before your exams, wondering what would happen to the two of you in half a year, and where you could be, and Jay takes his chance to ask you out on a date before it’s too late, you know it’s because both of you are now sure enough of not only your feelings but the other’s as well.
“I’d love to,” you conclude with a wide smile, and both of you are giddy and a bit shy, but it’s all okay. Being happy that a crush isn’t just a crush, it’s the start of a blooming relationship instead isn’t anything to be ashamed of.
Plus, now looking back, you can definitely say that everything happens for a reason, and sometimes what breaks your heart is exactly what leads you to have your heart mended.
