I miss you.
Ive reached my lowest, im already broken. Wanting to leave but I just have to believe .. In myself .. I lost all confidence. Being a grown up, as a kid they polish it. Make it seem like its the best life to live. But look at me now. I find no use to live. Mistreated all my life. All by men. They all pretend. No one knows my pain, but very few. Not everything though. Only two .. I feel useless, abused. That smile right there? That shits true. Now, I have to front and it sucks. I just want to be happy again. I want to feel loved. The only reason I put myself through all this bullshit is for my angel above. My first and only friend. Why'd you have to go? Why'd your life have to end? Only years old, I was kid. He was Batman and I was a witch. Gregory. Poor kid .. His soul should be free. Not locked up, forever 18. Im only putting my shit out there Because no one seems to listen. Full of hate as I look at my reflection. Smoke stokes 'til my brain blows. The only way I can enjoy myself alone. Its sad isnt it? How someone can feel so low .. I was bullied as a kid. Its all too surreal. I look back and see a lot of things I could've changed. I choose to misbehave. Gregory, when you're buried .. Save me a spot next to your grave. _shaynaarreguin.tumblr.com
