#reservxd

It’s my fault for hurting you. I’m not going to lie and hide how i feel so here goes.

Dear Riley…i love you. Madly in love with you. There is so much emotion and so much in my heart for you. Something no one or nothing can replace ever. You mean the world to me. You are my world. We promised that no matter what, the ups and downs we will still love each other and be with each other and I’m sticking to that promise. You are everything to me, i go to sleep and i think of you, and how much i want to be with you in your arms. I wake up and I’m like “fuck I’m lucky” because I truly am. Being able to still call you mine is the best feeling in the world. Waking up and realising i still have you and that we are gold! It really makes me smile and just happy. You make me smile and happy. You are everything a girl could ask for me and I’m lucky! So truly lucky. I want to be able to grow old with you, i really do. I want to experience so much with you by my side. There’s not a single thing that i regret with you. I love you so much baby. There is not a single guy in the world who can understand me better than you do. I never feel like i need to hold back while I’m talking to you its just so natural and beautiful. I sometimes wonder how you can put up with me and listen to me so patiently, even when I’m complaining so much about everything in my life.

God you know how to makes me smile even when I’m down and i am so grateful for that. Riley i love you and i know I’ve said it like a thousand times in this alone but i really do. I just can see myself without you and it’s such a scary thought! You are seriously everything for me. You seriously make me feel like such a princess. Tbh when i think of you i think of all the things to do with you. Like holding hands, going out, grocery shopping, cuddling in bed and so much more. In fact just the thought of being in bed with you sends shivers up my spine. You’re just so sweet and genuine; i really am in love with you. It’s just another day that I fall for you harder than I already have, another day where I get those butterflies, another day where I smile at every little text you send me, whether its “okay” or “I love you” it doesn't matter just as long as it’s from you. 

The greatest challenge in life is to find someone who knows all your flaws and differences, and yet is willing to embrace you with love. I thank god for helping me find you. I was at a wedding yesterday and it just hit me, that in what 6/7 years time I will be in that position, hopefully engaged and getting ready or another chapter in my life. I want that chapter to start with you, but I also want you to be happy and have a safe and blessed future, whether that’s with me, your family, your friends I don’t mind. As long as you’re happy, I’m happy. I honestly don’t even know where im going with this because well im speechless still. Knowing you love me just as much as I love you [ not more than me tho shh ] it makes me happy and feel so calm. I feel like I’ve got my baby, my riley. 

you probs think this is finished BUT IT'S NOT i still have lots to say just trying to find the words always makes it hard. I can't 100% tell you exactly how you make me feel because if i did then i'd be dead. literally. I simply want you know that since the day i met you ( last year may ) i knew you would be a keeper and the more we spoke the more i fell for you. I've been deeply in love with you or a year too so you know you've won me completely baby. However again no words to express the feeling i feel in my heart that you came into my life and how you make every day so special you are my life, my heart, my soul. You are my best friend, my one true love, my one and only. I love you more today than I did yesterday, and I'll love you more tomorrow than I do today. Loving you is the only thing that makes life worth living. Day by day, my love for you becomes overwhelming, and sometimes its scary because you're such an important part of my life.

so i thought i would drop by and just leave you a little surprise hack. It won't be long because i have no energy to type right now but i just wanted to thank you. Thank you for being here for me, being here when i've needed someone, making me feel better about myself and just being a part of my life. I honestly appreciate you so much and i adore you. You make my heart beat faster with your cuteness and its not fair. share some with me :( i love you alot bae, and you will forever be my best friend, my bae. Now you can be such an ass sometime but i know i annoy you alot tooo which is why our friendship is the best. We've also known eachother for a year now! A YEAR and like you said "it feels like 30" haahah well it does. Its because we have such beautiful memories together and im really happy. to have you. its a blessing bby. I'm actually excited for something which you knooowwww aye ;) so yeah, alwasy stay perfect and never change. i will always love you the way you are. You're my other half, my better half. <3 well im off your blog now, i know this was little but im OUT OF ENERGY DON'T HATE ME PLS!