#renaspeaks

I don't think I've felt this shitty on a period in a looooooong time. Let's just hope I can make it through this next week and a half without breaking down 😶

My sociology professor made a very good point. The discussion over Charleston about racism has shifted to talk about the confederate flag. While, yes, I understand that it’s about how the flag is a representation racism promotion, don’t you think that that’s drawing more attention away from the racism front?

Here's a little something I had to learn myself about having abandonment issues: If you're not making an active effort to participate and be involved, then when your friends and other people go off on their own you're not being left - you're the one who doesn't want to go. If your friends go without you or go somewhere else it doesn't mean that they don't like you or that they can't stand you or that you shouldn't exist or ANYTHING. Have a little bit more faith in those close to you - your real friends will be by your side when you need them and will love you still. (Note- this doesn't mean it's your fault when shit happens. It means that you have some power over what and how much effects you- taking these two things into account can make you feel much better! For me, it helped me fight the feeling that I was a bother and that it'd be better if I wasn't alive. I still have those, but it's much less than before and I can actually be happy and I enjoy things now and miss out on those friend events less. :) It's not a cure, but it helps me. I hope it helps you, too.)