#reilly shellito

lately hyperthinking

ij love thee dearest popinjay

]] for some reason,,   ,    i  know what co m  e   s    n     e      x       t

``were all in a fuckin atom

jjane ,  s ee the future

last night emma and fabi brought a bass drum floor tom another tom over and {{{{{{{{{} fish sorry this is more ocean in my brick ears my dad took from a beach in cleveland15 years ago /

we went to get more drums ffrom a sketchy house

emma was worried that he would rape them so i went with and found out why they might have thought he was going to rape them

he had two more toms

i don't know what to grab onto when i falll asleep tonigh

we were so ok , by a lake down in a false memory

feeling 1 bug crawling ~rather than the sensation of thousands of ants beneath an invisible layer of skin~

i am walking my D O G E in the caverns of my mind rn and i can guarantee you (electricit) . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .i was definitely my alter ego for another brief moment in my life. my alter ego is named rice.spindle. my alter ego is a heroin.addict. i'm at a point in my lyfe,  wherre i need to decide if i really want to be  xreilly or xrice . and i think that i know whats gonna happen to u/ and i think i know exactly what's going to happen to me get well sooon~

whwnever i take melatonin supplements i always spend 2 or 3 hours waving my limbs in the air on my bed

until i melt off onto the flor

and find the most unconfortable place by my roller skates       and rest my head on the wheels & u can take all the tosses and the turns and add em up til u get a number i dont feel like counting to

but if you want to you can,

and thats what being an insomniac is like; when 6mg of klonopin dopes you up enough just to forget that you couldnt sleep the night before

and then it starts again &again &again & possibly again but in the backof your mind(or the front)

yoou just know

that the rollerskates'll roll away from you like that precious moment of rem just before you wkae up

to another ddying  day

trhere’s a boy who lives in new jersey  and thinks hes hot shit cuz his only friends have vaginas and listen to the top 40s and his favourite movie is that one with the character named fat amy or something and everything he says is already engraved on the headstones at st vincent cemetery. the only reason i know this is because my friends who have vaginas and i used to go there and smoke cigarettes and talk about deathbut now thosee two friends of mine aren’t friends with each other. \ that boy says that he smoked cigarettes once and that he started craving more after his second one and i told him okay and he said that we don’t fight enough and i told him okay and he said that he doesn’t know if he loves me and i told him okay and he said that he likes his friends and i said i don’t and he died and i’ve been dead since the first time i fell asleep .