#mental extract

lately hyperthinking

ij love thee dearest popinjay

]] for some reason,,   ,    i  know what co m  e   s    n     e      x       t

``were all in a fuckin atom

jjane ,  s ee the future

last night emma and fabi brought a bass drum floor tom another tom over and {{{{{{{{{} fish sorry this is more ocean in my brick ears my dad took from a beach in cleveland15 years ago /

we went to get more drums ffrom a sketchy house

emma was worried that he would rape them so i went with and found out why they might have thought he was going to rape them

he had two more toms

if  u kiss me  i will hang low like

when it rains

like the trees bowing down to whoat overpowers them.

if u blow out thae last candle on yr last birthday cake i promise, i'll be 28 and soon cristmas eve will feel like sluggish purple/// / or molasses in a pot of snow.

in 3rd grade an iraqi girl told me that i will suffer from brain damage and she didnt know how to say "yellow' in iraqi.

~ IF you kiss me iw ill passionately kiss u and put my arms around your back and touch your eyelids                                      and i will feel safe for once for sure

in the first grade

we turned

plastic bags

into little terrariums

and watched

life grow before us,

when

we were 

still teeming with it

i'm on an overpass ^downtrodden.

i told my mother everything,

kind of. but it's painful ; to see the rea l   ones  leave r eality s o easily  ,

i'm on a roof with the spirits of americans in my lungs

and exhaled with whimpers

be    caus e it hurts

to see everyone driveby in memories,

*my      memories

and only want to  bury myself.

i'm flling a

and when i land the bones in my brittle skin will stick straight out from the groundu

like when we were kids, to throw a stick in the airt o land it perfectly uprite

it did a few times.

i remember. 

should i stop

?