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How I have been doing (no big vent, just news, positivity)

Well, actually, I've been doing good! The last 6 months have been fine, I hang out with friends at school and we laugh a lot even though exams are there soon. I'm sure I can pass them easily so I'm not even anxious 😎

I think I've been doing better than when I was active in the twst fandom, idk how to explain it but it was a way for me to cope with stress. And now that I feel more connected to my real life, I somehow stopped being in a "fictional bubble" where all I thought about was twst and other piece of media I consume. But!!! In no case has that fandom ever made me feel worse/bad. I'm always giggling and kicking my feet when interacting with y'all. 🥹

I just lost motivation because drawing pressured me a lot, for whatever reasons. I'm a big perfectionist so ig that's that. But I've been working on it so it's all good now!

Overall, I'm good!

Kogane

I started writing her lore and never posted the rest.. I have it all in my head though! If I don't write the rest, I'll probably just write a post that sums it up.

I thought a lot about her personality because it was somehow never stable. She could be an extrovert or an introvert, sensible or impulsive, arrogant or cheerful, selfish or selfless.... all at the same time. Yet all of it was in character!

I've come to the conclusion that Kogane is kind of like Floyd, she's not someone you can figure out completely. And you can't guess how she'll act, and can't guess what she thinks.

That's why there is so much angst potential with Ace! AceYuu is always doomed anyway, so here are some things I drew!

The "slowly forgetting your face" trend has gotten to me. So of course, I had to do it. Both of the drawings are from Ace's POV.

Her eyes look so tired on the second one, it's on purpose, and I love how I did the coloring.

(Also, I wrote the line of "I'll Believe In Anything" but afterwards I realized maybe I shouldn't have done it because well, an IRL friend of mine told me it's considered like a queer anthem. I only thought about it AFTER writing the line. I'm sorry if anyone takes offense. I just thought the song fits well with them, I never intended to erase queer experience or anything!! Especially not during pride month.)

I decided what I wanted to do with KogAce relationship, finally! Mostly I asked myself: "happy or bad ending?"

Bad ending. Well, Kogane goes back in her world at the end of their 2nd year. Leaving Ace– who was happy to finally be her BOYFRIEND– alone. He feels they spent TOO LITTLE time together, and now it's WAY TOO LATE for him to tell her how much he loved her. We can say she's the one that got away! Yeah, too many songs fit them..

But Grim too. I love the bond between Grim and Yuu, but I realized I haven't worked on it that much with Kogane and Grim.

Kogane, my first oc, my first daughter 🥹💔 I ought to give her more depth and I will!

Yuume

Ah my Yuusona! She was inspired from how I acted at the time I created her. Now I find myself being really more chaotic than her, maybe it's just the people around me that makes me this way (I love them 🥹). But I never really said she was that serious either. After all, I established already (in my mind) that she is just hard to read, but has a strong personality when she's around the right people.

Now, about my yumeship with Floyd. Well, Floyd is still my favorite character from TWST and one of my comfort characters. But I don't personally ship my IRL self with him. While I do ship Yuume, who is my self insert, with him, I don't ship myself with him. So is that still a yumeship??? IDK?? I need someone to enlighten me lmao.

Reika and Seiji

Unfortunately, I hadn't had much thoughts about her. But I do have some ideas how to improve the complexity of her bond with Seiji.

As for Idia, well, they're not even angsty or anything. They're just a happy couple. The angst comes with Reika and Seiji, siblings angst 💔

I realized it was almost unhealthy how Seiji really idealizes his sister and how she's the only person he really holds dear. Well actually, it is unhealthy. Reika, as perceptive as she usually is, she won't even notice it. So I guess I have to think of something that'll make an important turn in their relationship.

Also, since Kogane and Yuume are both Yuus, they're not in the same universe. For Reika and Seiji, they're also in a different universe with another Yuu.

The potential of Seiji to become a really complex character is here, I just didn't focus on it.

His personality has three layers:

1 - Helpful and cheerful. His classmates view him as someone who's selfless and kind. They wonder why is he at Octavinelle, so it was hard for him to gain everyone's trust at the begining of the year. He doesn't know why he acts that way, why he doesn't show his 'real' self instead of forcing another personality. He just does it.

2 - Sneaky and arrogant with violent tendancies. While he can be mischievous, sometimes he's also just teasing, without hurting anyone. He acts the opposite of the first layer, and only shows this side of himself around people he trusts just a little more. Though he won't admit that to himself and say it's just boredom. He'll come to act this way with Sebek, Yuu & Grim, Leona, Ruggie, Epel and the rest of the Spelldrive Club. Aw he trusts his teammates ❤️‍🩹🥹

3 - He doesn't know. Very quiet. He's like this when he studies, rarely. He tries to keep himself entertained so he doesn't have to feel this way. But late at night he's forced to realize he just doesn't know. What to do, what to become, how to act.. Sometimes he wonder what made him like this. His parents did play favorite with him, that should've satisfied him. But no. He rarely talks about it with Reika, knowing her childhood was much worse. He knows she sleeps late, so sometimes he sneak out of his dorm and goes to hers. Just to be with her and sit in silence most of the time.

He'll stop acting all helpful during book 7. Everyone saw his dream anyway, so he has no reason to keep acting this way. (I'll write a fic about his dream)

Other fandoms?

I realized I shouldn't just focus on TWST when I have so many interests other than TWST. For exemple, I'm very into ROTMHS (the manhwa as well as the novel) and JJBA (anime only for now). I even drew a Jojo Stand for myself if I ever had a Stand. And I have a ROTMHS oc as well!

Haikyuu is also one of my favorite anime and I'm very into Pokemon (tho the latter is already present on my blog)

I think about posting the Jojo Stand I drew, and the art I made about ROTMHS (and some edits).

What do I plan to post now?

Now, I realized I love drawing digitally, but I prefer writing. So this blog is probably going to become a writing blog more than an art one. Maybe I'll still join fanevents (with chibis), and I'll continue my Pokemon x TWST ocs series. And if I draw, it'll be small things or traditional art. Tbh I felt pressured by myself to draw things, and I never really liked anything I drew.

Instead of just yapping, I'll try to write real (and short) fics of my Ocs. It'll get me to actually do something instead of just doomscrolling, and that way I can keep interacting with the TWST fandom!

However I know this fandom is much more about art than writing. I'll probably get ignored, which is fine!

I have some things in head for KogAce that I'll post very soon. (And maybe Seiji but it's still foggy in my brain.)

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Thank to all my moots and people I follow on this app! The TWST fandom really feels like a big happy family on Tumblr.