#reader is always there

Note: Panic attack, FLUFFFFFFFF

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

Words: 1010

Bucky’s heart was thumping loudly inside his ears as his hands slightly trembled on her waist afraid to move. His entire body was stiff as (Y/N) wrapped her arms around his neck when she noticed how he glanced around the room. “Bucky?” She asked as frowned softly. ‘Kill them.’ Voices chanted loudly in his head as he tried to calm down. “Babe?” She asked in worry as his eyes dialed. She hissed softly at the harsh grip on her hips, but she knew something was wrong by the dark look in his eyes. She frozen when she heard him murmur in Russian before he let out a shaky breath before he stepped back. ‘Kill them All. They mean nothing to you.’ The voices were getting so loud that he couldn’t even hear the hard pulse of his own heart anymore.

“(Y-Y/N)..” He stuttered softly as his breath caught in his throat before everything started going fuzzy, hearing the laughter of people or their quiet mumbles to another. Everyone was a threat, but he refused to hurt them, his body and mind were in two different places at the moment. Suddenly (Y/N) was pushed away from him, not too hard, but enough so that he couldn’t harm her. “Buck--” She was cut off as he started towards the exit. He was feeling claustrophobic as he bumped into people as his mind roared with voices for him to end each life that was littering the room. He was out of the room, panting heavily before he stormed off towards the bathroom as he shut the door. He sunk to the floor trying to regulate his breathing, but everything was burning, everything felt alive.

“Shit.” (Y/N) cursed watching as he left when Steve, Natasha, Sam, and Tony went over to her. “What happened?” Steve asked in worry. “I think Bucky was trying not to lose himself.” She sighed before she looked to them. “I’ll be back.” She said before running for the door when Steve and Natasha came with her. “Tony, stay here and keep the guests busy. Be prepared to evacuate in case something happens.” Steve called as Tony nods. “Please be careful.” Tony called back as they walked out of the dance hall. “Alright, where would he have gone?” Natasha asked. “Not far, whenever Bucky has an attack his body is very numb. He struggles to stay on his feet.” (Y/N) explained when she looked to the bathroom. “There.” She said running over.

“Buck?” Steve asked knocking on the door as everyone heard him murmuring in Russian. “What’s he saying?” Steve looked to Natasha. “Kill.” She whispered as (Y/N) bit her lip softly. “Bucky..” Her soft voice whispered through the door when he went quiet. “Bucky, I’m gonna open the door slowly okay?” She asked as her fingers wrapped around the knob before the door slowly creaked open and in the darkness sat Bucky. “I’m sorry… I’m sorry--I don’t--I don’t know what happened.” He whispered with his head on his arms that were resting on his knees. “It’s okay Babe. There was a lot of people there.” She said as she walked in carefully, knowing the dance by heart that she had to move slowly so he could see her coming. “It’s okay. She repeated.

“B-But you wanted to dance… I did too… I just… Everyone was talking so loud and then these voices were telling me to kill them. I couldn’t breathe… I had to… to get out of there.” His voice was trembling as he spoke. “It’s okay. It’s okay.” She said bending down beside him. “We can still dance. Steve, go ask Tony to turn up the music.” She smiles. “We’ll dance here.” She said as he frowns looking at her. “In the bathroom?” He asked when she shrugs. “I don’t care where we dance my love. I just want to dance with you.” She kissed his forehead as Steve and Natasha left when she stood up offering out her hands. She closed the door and locked it before slowly flipping off the light as she helped him stand up from the ground when he looked down.

A few minutes later the music grew louder and a slow song’s melody played into the bathroom as she wrapped his arms around her waist before placing her own onto his neck. “Thank you.” He mumbled softly laying his forehead against her own as she smiles to him. “Anything for you. We wanted to dance, we got to dance.” She whispered while they swayed in the fluorescent lighting as he pulled her flushed against his body, causing her to giggle happily. “This is not how I expected our dance to go.” He mumbled against her neck as she smiles. “Expect the unexpected.” She grins as he rolls his eyes chuckling when he looks at her. “How about when everyone leaves, or whatever we ask Tony for one more dance? Just so we could dance in the ballroom.” He whispered when she nods to him.

“I’d like the sounds of that.” She whispered back while they swayed to the gentle music playing as she pulled back to look at him. “But any dance with you is my favorite dance.” She smiles softly. “Ugh stop being adorable ya butt.” He said when she starts to laugh. “I’ll stop when you stop.” She counters smirking at him when he sticks his tongue out at her, causing her to return with her own tongue. “Rude.” He comments as she giggles softly before too long the song ended as she looked to him. “Are you doing better?” She asked when he nods taking her hand. “Much.” He murmured softly. “Good.” She smiles before unlocking the door, seeing the others standing there waiting for them as Bucky froze for a moment. They cared about him, they were worried for him. He wasn’t the man he use to be, but no one cared about that which caused him to smile. “Hey Tony, I had a question.” He said looking up to him.

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