#rdc2017

ok, I am forcing myself to post this as there is a chance I will spend the whole of the con in my room and miss everything.

I’ve not been having a great time and I ended up chickening out of RDC2. I initially had no money for RDC3 but then had a payout a few days before Bryan was announced. When he was announced I was devastated I wouldn’t get to be there and my husbear ended up sitting me down and booking it all so I had the option even if I chickened out again. 

I’m super anxious about going, but I’m hoping that maybe I can say hi to some of the tumblr fannibals that are going? In the hopes that I won’t just hide. 

So mutuals if you see me and you want to say hi, please do - this me:

Here’s the thing. I used to be super outgoing. I’ve been in many outgoing job roles. I used to be a burlesque performer and producer. But the last 12 months or so have been really hard for me and have resulted in the worst anxiety I’ve had in my life. 

I want to recapture the old me, I want to go to the con and be *me* and not what my anxiety makes me. 

I recently started back at work after a year of parental leave and that has helped - there have been a lot of changes but it’s good to be back doing something I enjoy and am good at. I’m almost a different person there - me again. I want that to be the person who goes to the con. 

To that end I’ve decided to try and be super social at the con (I used to be the “life and soul” *sigh*). I will be forcing myself but I will do it!! And I will be doing it by offering to paint you up with flowers! Yes if you want some extra flowers than your flower crown, come find me! (this me). I have sparkly face paints and some simple flower stencils (it’s the quickest and easiest way and I haven’t done stage make up in a while so I’m a bit rusty). So... I can put them on your face, your arms, anywhere really - super quick and easy! 

Just come say hi and ask for some flowers!