Sequel to @rcmclachlan's incredible novempreg fic!!
I just couldn't get rc's incredible fic out of my mind, so here's a sequel âwritten with permission and incredibly kind encouragement!!
(in the 5 facts format and under the readmore bc it's about ~1500 words long lmao)
1. After Noelle starts crying, Buck and Tommy reluctantly part from each other and work on soothing her back to sleep. They donât bother hiding their giddy, dazed smiles.
She drops off like a rock after a few minutes of wailing that breaks both their hearts (theyâre going to be such pushovers, the two of them.) Buck teases Tommy about their kid maybe inheriting his ability to sleep through anything.
âAs long as she doesnât inherit your snoring,â Tommy replies, something about the moue of his mouth still tentative. But as Buck squawks indignantly, he laughs, looking openly and heartbreakingly happy.
When the rest of the 118 finally rushes in, vibrating impatiently and complaining about the âludicrous amount of time you guys have been hoarding her in here, Buck!â Tommy is the one holding Noelle. Maddie is the first one to reach the bed, and she looks directly at Buckâs arms, startling minutely at the lack of baby contained therein.
Buck frowns at her, but before he can open his mouth, Tommy is already passing Noelle over, and then suddenly the entire cohort of their family is crowding into the room.
(Tommy is happier than he can remember feeling for, god, at least a year, gratified by the time heâd already been grantedâthe hours heâd cradled Noelle and stared at Buck sleeping. He feels that abused sense of burgeoning hope and optimism, the one he let himself feel so rarely, that he had pushed away and smothered over and over and over again in the time heâd known Buck.)
What Buck notices is Tommy trying to melt back into the wall, as everyone turns to Buck, congratulating him and cooing over Noelle. And theyâre right, because he and Tommy made the most precious, wonderful baby in the entire world, but he canât help but notice that no one extends the same courtesies to Tommy, who is now staring out the window.
But Buck wonât let him walk away. Now now. He keeps a firm grasp on Tommyâs hand, pulls him forward, nearly toppling him into the bed. Now that Buck knows there can be BuckAndTommyâwell,everyoneâs going to damn well know that itâs BuckAndTommy and their baby. And everyoneâs going to damn well listen to the man who just gave birth tell them he couldnât have done any of it without Tommy, that Noelle is as precious as she is because Tommy also had a hand in creating her, that Tommy had rushed to the hospital and cried at his daughterâs birth, and oh, also theyâre back together now, does anyone have anything to say about that?
Everyone goes quiet just in time for Noelle to start squirming in Eddieâs arms. Tommy is red-faced but smiling faintly. Noelle immediately calms down when placed back in Buckâs arms. The Ankle Kicker 4000 smiles smugly.
2. They spend the next seven months making it work. Raising a newborn together and learning to talk to each other. Because, god, they keep assuming stuff about each other without saying anything at all. And now, with a daughter and so much time lost in the rearview, they need to make it work. They need to be brave, to believe the good is here to stay.
Noelle makes that part easy at least, because sheâs not just good, sheâs the best. The best cries until they soothe her, the best gifts them gummy smiles and impassioned babblings, the best is a delightfully chubby package in her helicopter onesie and strawberry socks.
But Buck notices the way Tommy mentally and physically retreats when someone from the 118 shows up to help out or drop off food or watch the baby for them. Itâs less that heâs closed off when they show up, and more the way he reanimates after they leave, his scrunchy smiles and gentle voice gradually coming back into view. Buck doubts that happened after Tommyâs previous quiet exits.
Tommy immediately hands Noelle over to whoever asks, as long as theyâre friendly with Buck. Buckâs favorite barista greets them at the counter and playfully demands baby cuddles, and Buck watches as Tommy instantly cuts off whatever he was saying to their daughter.
Jenny rocks Noelle for a few seconds before handing her back, saying âCongratulations daddies!â and hooking them up with the complicated, sweet monstrosity Buck got addicted to during his pregnancy (sheâs his favorite for a reason), as well as Tommyâs latte and crumb cake (Buck is going to make one so much better itâll knock Tommyâs socks off. But heâs definitely not pouting about it right now.)
After theyâve enjoyed their treats and given Noelle her bottle and sheâs snoozing away in her little seat, Buck directs all his attention to Tommy, who is smiling absentmindedly and fiddling with his empty cup. It looks tiny in his giant hands, just like their baby does.
âYou know you donât always have to hand her over if you donât want to, right?â Buck ducks his head to keep making eye contact with Tommy. âSheâs yours first.â
He grabs Tommyâs handââso am I.â
Theyâre having dinner with the Hans a few weeks later, and Maddie asks for cuddle time with her niece. Tommy playfully lifts Noelle over Maddieâs head, insisting sheâs not done with papa time.
Buck is immeasurably proud of him.
3. Along with juggling a newborn, they quickly realize they need to find a new place to live together. Tommy constantly exhausts himself driving to Buckâs house. His stuff has taken over the guest room, flooding the house just as much as all the baby equipment. At least the moving in together milestone has been reduced to a non-discussion.
The first time Buck insists they pack up and spend time at Tommyâs house instead, he walks into the nursery and gasps at the most beautiful crib heâs ever seen.
âWhy didnât you bring this over for the nursery at my place?â
Tommy shrugs in a way Buck now knows is deceptively practiced. âYou had the crib Chim and Maddie gave you.â
Buck had been so grateful at the time, with his unplanned pregnancy and all. But it was a hand-me-down Ikea crib. He hadnât known this was an option.
Buck finds the Winnie the Pooh wallpaper charming as well, asks where they can get some more for an accent wall in the new nursery, wherever it ends up being.
âI was actually thinking about painting a mural,â Tommy admits. âA forest, or the zooâall animals and flowers. And bugs, obviously.â
Evan blushes at the consideration, but curiosity wins outââwhy didnât you do it here?â
Tommy looks away before answering. âDidnât think sheâd spend much time here anyway.â
4. So they get a new house together. Fight about the best ways to pack, what to keep. Envision Noelle running around in the yard (with a bunch of dogs. Maybe another kid.) Buck finds the musical pull-down monkey still in its box. Is grateful to have a back up because she loves the thing, and he can already see it breaking sooner rather than later.
Rides Tommy into another bare mattress when almost everything is in boxes, ready to go to their new home. Slows the pace, gently cradles his face, and forces him to hear Buckâs gratitude.
Thanks for the gorgeous crib, the way heâd interrogated the realtor before theyâd closed on the house. For the half-painted nursery wall, the fucking monkey. For the appointments and nighttime drives and all the mind-blowing pregnancy sex Buck now knows had been slowly bleeding Tommy dry.
5. The first Fatherâs Day after Noelle is born, Tommy leaves a single daisy in a vase, breakfast in the warmer, and a kiss on Buckâs birthmark, before heading to an early shift.
He comes home to Buck bustling around the kitchen, talking to Noelle in one of her many bassinets. The smell of fresh bread and roast chicken and chocolate chip cookies greets him like a warm hug.
âWe want Papa to have the best Fatherâs Day donât we Ellie baby? Because papa is such a good dad isnât he, yeah heâs the best, weâre so lucky to have papaâŚâ
Tommyâs sneaking his fourth cookie when he finally notices the ring box next to the tray.
+6. Buckâs second pregnancy is very different from his first. For one, itâs a carefully discussed and planned endeavor (and god they had fun in the action phase.) Second, now Tommy is around him every second of every day, hovering and enthralled by the growing bump. Buck alternates between being driven crazy and crying over the way Tommy whispers sweet nothings to his stomach, the way he gently talks to Noelle about how sheâs going to be a big sister any day now.
Sometimes Buck still wants to slap himself (and Tommy) for those seven months when he, when they could have had all this, this security and love and confidence. But then his family always pulls him away from those thoughts.
Because theyâve made it.












