if it were up to him ottana would have never found out about his blood or even his real name. even with her finding out, he still maintains a lot of his Sineha persona and, frankly, he's too scared to be genuine with her at this point.
he's very...idk, pristine, with her. always a smirk on his face, he rarely seems angry, much less scared, sad, or tired. at worse he can be a bit derisive, cruel, or dismissive of others, but rarely acting on that where ottana can see. always adjusting his persona in little ways based on her reactions and what's said to him. if she says its ok for him to be vulnerable with her, he'll pretend to be, and there's a grain of truth in it- but where it is, among the cascade of half-truths, is the question.
he's desperate to keep her, caged like a trapped butterfly in his hands. desperate yet terrified by simple acceptance of his entire self. he's a liar and a coward and leaves claw marks in everything he holds onto, he is a man drunk with power yet living in terror, that he'll be caught, that he will forget, that he will be rejected by those he loves, that he cannot love
