#ravish

not a suspension: the senses wouldn’t protect me. I caution you as I was never cautioned:

you will never let go, you will never be satiated. You will be damaged and scarred, you will continue to hunger.

Your body will age, you will continue to need. You will want the earth, then more of the earth–

Sublime, indifferent, it is present, it will not respond. It is encompassing, it will not minister.

@aurlyn and I together for the @14daysdalovers event.

Have fun 💖

@14daysdalovers

to flirt with your hair,

And the earth

to feel your weight.

Some day for sure i'll avenge

Both the wind and the earth

My fingers playing with your hair,

My body carrying your weight.

And my pressing of lips to yours

Will become the subject of envy

Even amongst the angels

Up there in heavens...

It was my junior year of college and one of my friends, Sarah, had just graduated! Her celebration was filled with fun, laughter, and drinks. Sarah’s older brother, Sal, was the bartender for the night. During the party. It seemed like Sal was really determined to get me drunk. Every time my cup was empty, there he was to refill it! I didn’t mind, I wanted Sal to fuck me ever since I met him! He was easily 6’4 and all muscle! He reminded me of a modern day lumber jack, with his large strong arms and legs and that beard!! This man was pure sex, at least in my mind he was! Him being older also made him that much more of a catch!

Sal towered over me and that’s saying a lot considering my build. I’m 5’9 and I’ve always been plus size! My breasts, thighs, and ass had the measurements to prove it! “More cushion for the pushin” someone once told me! Because of my mild addiction to exercising, much of my thickness was muscle. I also had the attitude to match my size! I was a bright and smart student, who was not afraid to take charge! My personality was so magnetic that I used it to help recruit for my university! My dark brown eyes matched my skin which was speckled with moles and freckles galore! I usually kept my hair in tight braids, but that night I wore it out in a large natural Afro that I loved so much!

I felt so confident at that party! I carefully put together the outfit I was wearing one piece at a time: Long sleeved tight fitting black top to help control the little tummy that I did have and a gold skirt that stopped just at my knees! The black tights and booties were my favorite part! I wore light mascara and eyeliner with gold dangly earrings to match! I felt like a goddess in that outfit!

The party was booming , but the alcohol was getting to me! After about 4 drinks the drinks were starting to hit me a little too much. I didn’t want to make scene or ruin Sarah’s night, so I quietly walked into the hall to collect myself and popped a squat against the wall. I heard someone clear their throat and when I looked up I saw him! Sal has followed me into the hall. He noticed that I was drunk and started heckling me about it. He leaned down and started pushing my shoulder asking if I was drunk! “It’s your fault, if you didn’t keep filling my cup” to which he responded “Well, maybe I did it on purpose”. I felt butterflies flutter in my stomach! Why would he want me drunk? I didn’t need liquor if he wanted me? I’d happily take him bright eyed and sober. Sal pushed me again and I pushed back at him. Because I was squatting, my hand hit directly at his groin. He moved back a little and whispered “That’s for later”. I gasped and quickly stood back up from the shock of that statement. When directly approached in a sexual manner, I get nervous. So as I started to walk away a said “Thats my que to leave” Sensing that I was drunk, Sal offered me a ride home.

I was happy but disappointed! I wanted to be with him, but I wanted to be fully sober if I were lucky enough! It was not too often that a guy I was interested in felt the same way, especially someone like him! I walked back to the party, said my good byes to Sarah and the rest and left with Sal. I would ask my roommate to drive back tomorrow to pick up my car. The party was only a 10 min drive away from my apartment. We pulled up to my apartment and he kindly walked me to my door. He convinced me to let him come in and sit and talk for a bit! There was no talking at all! As soon as I shut and locked the door, his lips were on mine!

Hard, rough, and I could feel his hands all over me! Before I could think, he pulled me down the hall and into my bedroom! Guessing which room was mine was an easy mission, considering my room was the one with the open door and the pictures of me and my family everywhere! My room was decorated with white fairy lights above my bed, closet door, and entry door. I usually flipped on my lights before leaving, it gave my room a romantic soft glow. Sal shut my door and shoved me onto my bed. He climbed on top of me, forcing himself between my legs. Sal started kissing me up and down my neck! I could feel his dick growing as his was push himself against me. It felt hard and big, really big! The next thing I can remember is him sliding off my tights and my panties going with them! After throwing my tights and panties to side, Sal placed himself between my legs again. This time my bare pussy was rubbing against the growing bulge in his pants. I could the firmness every time he would grind into me.

“You want me? Tell me you want me? Don’t you want it? I’m gonna make you feel so good, baby” He said while breathing heavily.

Suddenly it hit me: I was drunk and I didn’t want it like this! I wanted sex with him to be something I did sober! Yes, he was my friend’s brother, but I barely knew this man! This is not me, I don’t have sex with strangers! I don’t do random hookups!

I told him “Wait, no” and “stop” but he didn’t listen!

“Sal, come on now. Stop, I don’t wanna do this” I said more forcefully while grunting from exertion to get him off of me.

I tried to push him off, but it was no use he was much bigger and stronger than me! His face went from lustful to frustration and that’s when he slapped me! I guess he didn’t like all the struggling! He groped my breasts through my top so hard, I thought I was gonna cry! Then his hand made its way down to the hem of skirt and he found his way to my pussy. I admit I was wet from the first few kisses and he taunted me with it.

“Oh, you didn’t really want me to stop. Did you?”

Sal’s fingers found my clit and made hard and rough circles around it! He then jabbed two fingers inside of me and used his thumb to continue to play with my clit. The fingering was so intense especially with him hitting my g-spot! I came so hard that my legs were shaking. He got off of me, stood up, and I thought that was all he wanted. To my horror, I heard his pants unbuckle...

Before dropping his pants to the ground, he pulled his wallet from his back pocket and produce a latex condom.

“Never leave home without one”, he said.

I got scared and crawled to the furthest corner on my bed!

“Strip”, he said to me.

Then he continued to undress himself. When Sal was down to just his briefs, he looked up and noticed that I had not moved. He grabbed my left leg and effortlessly yanked me to the edge of the bed. He reached down and grabbed my face with his huge hands and brought it within an inch of his own face. I could feel his warm breath on skin and I hated it. In the most calm and calculated manner, he whispered “I said “strip””. I was not the type who liked to be pushed around! I hated being told what to do and when to do it. So with defiance in my eyes, I angrily spat in his face.

“Why the fuck would you do that?!” He growled at me.

His eyes had grown dark and empty, which made a small amount of fear and regret swell inside my chest. He pushed me back on the bed, got on top of me, put one hand around my throat and used his other hand to shove four of fingers into my pussy! I thought that I was gonna split in two, it hurt so bad! He callously moved his fingers inside of me causing the pain to intensify.

“Ah, you’re hurting me. Stop, it hurts!” I cried to him. I was panting so heavily, I felt like I was gonna pass out.

“ When you’re ready to listen to me, I’ll stop. You’re only making this harder on your self” he said back to me.

After a few more painful thrusts of his hand, he stopped and got off of me.

With venom in his words he feverishly whispered “NOW STRIP”

I stood and pulled my shirt over my head. Revealing my black laced bra that cupped my large breasts. I went to reach for my skirt and Sal startled me.

“The bra too!” He grunted at me

My hands moved back up and I cautiously unclipped my bra. I heard Sal groan in excitement as my breasts popped free and my bra fell to the ground.

“Pierced nipples? Oh now you’re just teasing me” He said with an eerie smirk forming on his face.

He took a step towards, closing the little space between us and grabbed my left breast! He started groping me like a mad man, then he bent down and started sucking on my nipple. Though I was scared out of mind, his hot mouth felt so good against my tender nipple! His tongue sucking, licking, and swirling almost sent me over the edge. My body betrayed me as I let out a soft moan. I guess Sal took that as me wanting more because he sucked even harder!! He stopped his assault on my breast and pointed at my skirt.

“Take off the skirt” He said in a less menacing tone.

When I looked down to upzip my skirt that’s when I noticed his dick! He still had on his briefs, but I could see the outline of it and it was huge! He noticed me staring and he grabbed his dick and smirked.

“ A little over 9 inches and a hand full, but I know you can take it!” He said as his horrible grin grew.

And with that my fear came all rushing towards me at once, I tried to bolt for the door but he grabbed me by my hair and tossed me onto the floor.

“It’s skirt, you don’t have to take this off for me to fuck you anyway” he said.

He was on top of me and the weight of his body was something I’d never forget! He was crushing me and he liked it! He leaned up and dressed his now free dick with the condom he had!

“I’ve been waiting for this all night”, Sal growled at me.

He grabbed his dick and roughly thrusted himself into me! I felt like fire was blazing through me. The pain from him being so harsh was blinding! Though I wasn’t a virgin, it felt like my first time all over again! The pain and the fear all wrapped into one! I could his balls slapping against me as he loudly grunted into my ear! He lowered his head and began sucking on my nipples while fucking me. All the while, I lied there uselessly swatting at him and begging him to stop! Each thrust hurt worst than the last!

“Sal, I’m sorry. Stop, please! If you stop we can do this another time, I promise” I tried to bargain with him

“I...want this...now. I...want...you now” he breathlessly whispered in between grunts

“Please! You’re hurting me” I begged and I began to cry.

He was going full force by pulling himself all the out and slamming all the back into my aching cunt! This caused me to moan in pain, which only made him smile! Suddenly, he picked up his pace and his thrusts became more aggressive! Sal’s grunting became more animal like the faster he moved. He was about to cum, I just knew it! Then he withdrew him, lifted me up, and flipped me onto my stomach!

“Please just finish”, I begged him to which he replied “Before I fuck your ass?”

I started to panic at that moment! I had never had anal sex before and I didn’t want to start, especially not now!! I felt him use my pussy’s wetness as lube on my untouched asshole. I hoped that he’d take it easier this time around with it being my ass, but I was wrong! He rammed himself inside of my tiny asshole just as hard! I arched my back and screeched in pain! I felt myself stretch more and more around his dick the deeper he got. He began his same “all the way out and all the way in” motions again! I suddenly, felt him reach around and start rubbing my clit with his rough hands. Every grunt was louder and more brutish! When I felt him stop pumping, I prayed that it was over, but not quite yet. He pulled out of me and took his condom off.

“I’ve gotta do this right”. “Do what right?”

I asked but he ignored me.

He took his dick and forced himself back into my pussy. Raw, no protection! I panicked! I wasn’t ready for children and definitely not with him! He kept thrusting until I felt him start to gain incredible speed! Then I feel it! Streams of hot cum shoot into my unprotected cervix! Stream after stream, I could feel myself filling up with his cum. Even though he was orgasming he continued to make painful thrusts into me! When he finished he slowly pulled out of me, got dressed, and left me on the floor. Alone, naked, and dripping