#ranting.

Art not done by me. (Its done by the amazing Deya on twitter)

But I thought this was extremely telling for Day 1 of being kicked out; over what Adam had to mentally deal with. All this… for who? These animals mean nothing to Eve compared to Adam. And this is only the beginning to what he just has to get over in this new existence. Get over or die horribly.

A man used to lush greens, of areas of plenty. Now has to learn about weather. About scarcity. What freezing is. What over heating can do to a tired human body. Illness. How large or minor injuries can become infected. What being tired is. Hungry. Learn to be Nordic, to farm with nearly zero knowledge on what can fed or kill you. (Ever heard about Chris McCandless? Basically that but without resources)

Having to skin and eat the beasts you once coveted and loved. Then you have to bring a family into the world and force them to do the same thing or else they die. (What if one grows sick and spreads it to the others?) What if the plants that once could help you in the spring are poisonous by winter? How would they know what an adult body can compared to a child?

If your child dies tough! Get back to work because each day could kill more.

Hunting can take days and lead to exposer or injury. ANYTHING can kill you.

And for what? For who? And why?

Lucifer and Lilith had his magic, became kings and queens!

Adam got stuck in the world that Lilith had been DYING to go too! Not him!

Say what you want about Adam but no one deserves this. And if Adam helped Eve and the kids survive each and every day then that’s more than what should be expected. Who’s a bad father in that? Because he didn’t ask for this. It wasn’t his consequences to suffer but he did.

Cheapen this in Hazbin Hotel. I dare you. Build your excuses that Adam is resentful or a ‘bad dad’. Reality is this. Lucifer, Lilith, Heaven and Eve are all what brought this upon themselves to varying degrees of guilt. But it’s what costed Adam the most.

Eve cheated day two, got him kicked out day three. All while Lilith and Lucifer continues to be lavish in finery.

Keep your affair baby and your hypocrisy of fairness, and choice.

Fairly certain my eyes are bloodshot from crying and I have a lingering pain in my chest/a very bad headache (no doubt from panicking—)

I just want comfort from any of my partners right now... last night was so stressful and bad...

Ever since I was a kid I wanted to be someone different to my dad. Don't be a lousy father, don't cheat, don't scare your kid or your partners.. look where that fucking got me. I failed Jason, I was caught with Whizzer, and everyone's scared I'm gonna snap again and become aggressive when I get angry.

You know what? That's valid. I am dangerous. When I got angry recently and kicked off at everyone I punched the doorframe so hard my knuckles bled and I didn't tell a soul.

Now I'm the person, just like my dad, that people don't want to be. Hell, my own son barely looks up to me, his step dad is clawing desperately at every opportunity to not become like me, Trina is forever not over it (which I don't blame her for) but FUCK. Even HE wouldn't be proud of me, I'm trans and gay and now a carbon copy of him. Which is also why my mom would also hate me.

Why am I the dumb villain that no one wants to be? I work a successful job, I have a boyfriend, and a son, and friends. A roof over my head, food. Such an improvement from my childhood and yet I'm back in a RUT.

BECAUSE EVERYTIME MY MOM'S HOME SHE'S ALWAYS GONNA SAY SOMETHING TO RUIN MY FUCKING DAY.

I HATE THAT WOMAN. WHY CAN'T SHE SAY SOMETHING GOOD ABOUT ME FOR ONCE OR JUST LET ME BE??

"You're gonna keep the laptop only for two hours, 5 until 7"

Yeah and I won't be able to talk to my friends by the time they're online. She's always pulling shit like this on me and I hate it.

She's always suspicious of me talking to other kids online. She's always a pain in the fucking ass. And let's not forget the trauma she caused me two years ago. She broke my fucking trust, and acts like the victim.

I feel like it started when natasha said “I know how much bucky means to you.” Instead of just “barnes” in the civil war trailer. Or the fact steve says a gentle, “buck, do you remember me?” Instead of attacking him with “which bucky am I talking to?”

When marvel realized they accidentally created the perfect love story they started to panic. There׳s too much to read between the lines, too much subtext, so they start to regress.

In the best case scenario they change scenes, alter lines, make them look less significant, they strip down every last sign of softness and rough the edges like they do so incredibly well.

In the worst case scenario, they ruin a character. Endgame steve is not steve. Not really. And I do mourn that. He was forced into an ending that didn’t suit him the least. His whole 8 years old arc was destroyed because something as simple as a relationship. And it’s not as much as going back as it was leaving bucky behind. Alone. Yes, alone. Because until he learns to trust sam, bucky is very much alone.