#rant-esque

but no i understand that my name isn't legally that but the way that you fucking said that offended me by a landslide ok like you could have reworded that or you could have just said nothing at all because you know what i hate my real name i really hate it i hate hearing people calling me that i absolutely despise it i thought that you would be more like "ok i'll try to remember to call you eren" instead of "it's not legal so i don't have to call you eren" like what the FUCK man i understand that you have negative conotations towards someone else who goes by the name "erin" but you can call me some kind of nickname like "eri" or whatever tickles your fancy i'd just prefer for people to not call me my actual name, especially people who are as close to me as you are i've known you for a pretty damn long time and i know it can be hard to think of me as "eren" instead of my other name but i'd really appreciate it if you started trying to call me that instead of blowing me off like that my old name isn't me at all. i'm not that name. i'm not. please respect that i'm not that name anymore. there could be a possibility that you only said that out of the defense of constantly calling me my old name since i might have seemed a bit annoyed due to the fact that i've been constantly reminding you for a while to call me eren, but you didn't even think anything of your statement after you said it and that's what really got me it's just a name but i, out of all honesty, got a bit hurt by how you could just be like "yeah whatever" to me

Even if this is a mistake, though, I think it's one I'm going to have to make this time. He's a wonderful person, and he makes me laugh and smile, and I really don't want to lose that.

and yes yelling was necessary