#randomly speaking

so on twitter i’m this happy and funny girl who tells jokes and ships couples and stuff.

here i’m just a depressed bag of laziness.

i remember this guy in tv some years ago who said something that got stuck in my mind:

“in my life i did many things that made me proud of myself, but nothing that really made me happy”

i really feel him, cause i’m the average girl who usually takes good grades, who works quite hard, who let people copy the answers during the test.

needless to say, in this period i’m fucking up my entire life, tomorrow i’ve got a test, and -guess what- i’ll be the one who needs to copy.🤠

it’s just a temporary crisis that me and the world are getting trough

i weigh exactly as i did last summer (69,5 kg)

but i can’t see myself in the same way

i remember being, for most of the time, at peace with how i looked

now i see myself in the mirror and the only thing i can see is jiggling fat

i feel my clothes fitting better, but still can’t see any real difference in how i look, even though i lost almost 10 kg

it’s my birthday in a few day and in december, when I first met him we talked about that. but now he has surely forgotten the day because he actually doesn’t give a shit about my fucking birthday

so there’s this huge voice in my head, and she says “he won’t remember, he won’t remember, he won’t absolutely remember..”

and then there’s this tiny and sneaky and little voice saying “he will.”