#randomlatenightthoughts

Alot on my mind. Buying a new car, new responsibilities at work, two years since my mom passed coming up in a few days, failing that dating game... #work #randomlatenightthoughts #fail #newcar #toomuch #shouldjustsleep

I'm realizing who my (main) boys are. And I already knew I loved them but I never really knew if they loved me too...haha. Which I've come to accept if they don't care about me as much because I've come to accept that I tend to remember/care about people more than they do about me. But they actually let me know. Monday - early PM - Neil's the first person who reacted. Late PM - Marc calls me and the first thing I said was, "OHWSUPCUHZ!!!" And he did the same, "OHWSUPCUHZZZ HAHAHAH" 😂 and he was like, "Welcome back!!! Wya??? Let's go get something to eat!!" "We're home! My mom cooked dinner though" "Let's go get BBQ!" "Aww I can't, my mom just cooked!" "What she cook??" "Alfredo, and tocino I think" "Oh dang. Okay Ima come over cos I'm in SJ. But if someone needs a ride then Ima pick them up first and then head there" "Oh you're working rn??" "Yeah! But Ima head there. Man I HECKA missed you guys" "Huh?" "I missed you guys!!" "Aww missed you too! Haha" and then blah blah blah and he ended up coming over. Tuesday - CJ texts "Welcome back Alda! 😁💕" But I didn't reply for an hour cos jet lag and then he ended up calling lol and we're gonna end up doing something soon! Maybe next week cos his schedule is a lot better and he doesn't work 12 hours and gets off early. Wednesday - Er, technically Thursday lol cos 1AM, Cam texts, "I love you and I'm glad you made it back home" and I'm just like, "Aww how sweet haha thank you! I love you too 😂" "❤️" OH! And before we left he sent a snap with the typical face he makes when we take pics together lol with the caption, "Have a safe trip I love you ❤️" and I snapped the same hahaha And just, awww. I love them. I honestly have been thinking about my entourage LOL ever since Neil brought up his wedding party or whatever and... I really hope my future dude won't mind me having bride's men...? LOL. Or that he has girl homies too and we can have an even amount of girls and boys on each side. Cos I actually would have Cam on mine lol. And my bro. Because if not, I only have 2-3 girls 😂 unless he has a sister/sisters then we can do what people typically do and include our siblings or whatever on it. Or Idk, hopefully I end up making more sister friends and getting close to them before I get married haha. Who knows.

A girl take one sheet of blank white paper. Hold it up for her friends to see. "What do you see?" "A paper. " She then take a pen and make a small dot. "Now what do you see? " "A black dot. " See there only a small flaw. People do tend to see the flaw instead of the white around it. That human. #justsaying #quotes #randomlatenightthoughts (at Tasik Gelugor, Penang)

Do you ever come to a situation where you completely forget about what do you want in life, because you're too busy trying to fix other people lives...people that matter.. And you're just there standing on the corner waiting for someone who could do the same for you. Someone who could see what you really worth because you have no idea how rare you are and worth something more than a diamond or a pearl in the vast ocean. You're just in your bed, listening to music...thinking how far can you go? Is it ever enough?! #randomlatenightthoughts