#random ig

so I entered a sidewalk art competition and the piece that I did was a bit surrealist i was not catering to my audience at all I was just going with the flow cuz originally it was just a landscape piece is based off of something that's unfinished in my room right now and in my unfinished concept I did mermaids like that's that's what I wanted to happen I did not draw those mermaids in this surrealist piece instead I did like an eye overlooking the water pushing away like maybe it's a giant or something I don't know but I got really sick of the piece really early in and was like

"wow this actually sucks I hate it"

but I pretty much just stuck through and finished it because I'm not a quitter but also I am kind of a quitter

whenever I got home and we were talking about the winners so the girl that won did an amazing job she did this realistic photocopy of her brother holding a cat it was great it looked amazing she did an awesome job she she deserved to win you know I was not salty or anything I was very happy for her that she did a great job and like we actually talked we were next to each other during that period so I got to see the piece while she was going through it got to see her sketch process kind of and she even lended me some gray chalk like she was so nice she deserve to win

I get home and my family is pissed they're complaining that she just copied from a photo and that anybody could have done that and I'm looking at them like are you serious? have you lost your mind? because my family absolutely could not do that nobody could just do what she did, she did an amazing job

And they wanted me to be angry that I didn't win???? Like I'm an adult. I can take an L -I've been taking them my whole life tf?

But it really pissed me off that they were degrading her hard work like it would make me feel better, especially when I lost all interest in winning after the third hour lmaoooo.

They were also pissed about the 3rd and 2nd place winners, I only ever saw the 3rd place winner and his was a fox head. It looked really good, it was very eye catching.

I👏got👏sick👏of👏mine👏half👏way👏 through 👏I👏missed👏the👏point👏

Art is supposed to be fun, I didn't deserve to win. The people who had fun and enjoyed the process and showed off their hard earned skill deserved the win.

Idk why this is such a revolutionary concept guys

See this is the piece ^

You can tell I got tired. You can tell I didn't care after a while.

Idk I need this rant ig

Do they really see masculinity as incompatible with overt affection that reads as nurturing or silly?

I mean, come on. How do you treat grown men in real life that you love? Do you like...salute them or something? lmao. I have a brother who is large and physically intimidating. He is a combat veteran and a martial artist. What do I do when he walks in the door? I pinch his face and call him a stupid nickname. This nickname is the diminutive of his actual name, followed by a rhyming foodstuff.

How does he respond? He laughs, grins all cheesy, and hugs me. Because affection is not emasculating. Loving humor is not demeaning.

Those things are how we show love, actually. And forcing men into a role where they can never accept either without renouncing their masculinity is really really bleak.

(the whole conversation reminds me of my boomer mother, who will correct you if you call a man pretty. "Men are handsome and women are pretty."

No. Pls. No. I don't want to live in a world where women cannot be handsome and men cannot be pretty and people cannot just fuck around with gender however they see fit.)

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