Arthur Pendragon is a woman

The anxiety of putting myself out there is wild, why did I sign up for this?

What's crazy is I don't think I've ever been happy

What sucks is the things that give me dysphoria are so fndkxoskskd fucking stupid. My height?! The one thing that can't change no matter what I do?! My dead name? Hearing it? Oh that's fine. WRITING IT DOWN THOUGH- oh boy. Get ready for the bad thoughts™ I've never seen myself in a single picture taken of me and get viscerally uncomfortable looking at photos. I hate it here.

One day life will treat me well

I hate dysphoria so much I hate the world too I hate that I can't just be myself and I hate that existing is brave and I'm so tired

I can never make my own decision istg. I say what I want and plan to do and suddenly I'm five fucking years old again and just shoot me now I'm so tired of every choice I make being discarded. But that's not the right word. That's not the word I'm looking for I fucking can't I'm so tired 🤦

I had a coworker tell me she liked me more at the end of my shift instead of the start to which I can only reply, "oh so like...you had a conversation with me?" Like girl we usually only see each other for five minutes ofc you're going to have a narrow view of me as a person.

Is it confirmed that Merlin never went back to Camelot after Arthur died?

When you really think about it asexual merthur is the superior belief. Those are just two sex adverse people dating, going about life, being freaks about each other without fucking

No wonder no one asked me to help close all week even though they needed it that over time check just hit holy shit