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last night i was on the verge of a huge panic attack. I was close to tears, shaking, and couldn't sleep. i haven't used a pacifier in ages, ive been busy and age-regression isn't something i turn to anymore.

but last night...i tried everything. i resorted to one last attempt, grabbing my pacifier. i had read it helps with anxiety but never really experienced needing it in a bad situation.

but having a comfort object helped. whether it be a pacifier, a chewy thing, something to keep your hands busy or just a blanket.

having routines helps my anxiety a lot, and i’ve always thought about sharing what i do in the mornings, and before i go to bed...so here i go!!

♡ day time  ♡

my daytime routine is pretty straight forward!! sometimes i shower in the mornings, so afterwards i do this, but most mornings i do this as soon as i wake up!!

♡  remove all excess makeup i didnt quite get off last night - i also have some stuff in the pink mickey case to help this. (and some plasters, lipbalms etc!!)

♡ baby oil, followed by lotion and then powder!! super super soft :3

♡ i make sure i have my outfit organised with socks!! i hate walking around with bare feet, so i always make sure my socks are the first thing i put on!!

♡ make sure my hair is brushed, and clean my teeth after ive eaten something, even if it’s small.

♡ make sure to keep a drink near me at all times (sometimes it’s water, othertimes it’s a nice herbal tea. i have different ones for mornings and some to help me sleep!)

♡ night time  ♡

♡  take off all my make-up from the day if i’ve worn any (similar to my morning routine, except i wash my face with warm water in the morning as well as cleansers, and tend to only stick to cleansers before bed as my skin is easily irritated if i use too much on it!)

♡ night oils, lotions and powder!! i use the “sleepy” lotion on my arms and chest/neck area so i can smell the lavender. :3

♡ if i have a bath/shower, i do all of the above after!! (i got a new bubble bath today so im excited for how that smells!!)

♡ brush my teeth and get some water for my bedside :3

♡ sometimes i sleep with my paci..other times i only use it during the day (actually doesn’t have much to do with my regression sometimes, sometimes it really helps with my anxiety!) but i always sleep with my stuffie!!

♡ if you’d like more things like this, do let me know!  ♡

♡ morning tea time!! ♡

yesterday i bought myself a new mug, and part of my self-love routine is to make sure i have a cup of herbal tea and do a little yoga each morning.

today is wednesday, so im also running myself a bath and giving my face/skin a deep cleanse. (i do this every other day to keep my acne at bay the best i can!!)

It didn’t help when the obviously new, young barista snickered a bit at my efforts. I felt my voice get smaller and smaller and my throats feel tight. Too embarrassed to look up at Yamaguchi, I played nervously with the hem of my shirt and quietly panicked. (2/2) ~Emi (Ahhhh this took forever to send in sorry DX I’ve been so busy it’s nuts @_@)

Yamaguchi approached the counter with you and looked it over with ease, about to open his mouth to speak, when he noticed the barista give off a quiet scoff. He frowned slightly and looked down at you. He was shocked to see you looking so frail, so feeble. His chest tightened up and he reached out to take your hand firmly in his. 

“What would you like? I can order for you,” he said softly to you as he gave a sidelong glance to the barista. He’d known how hard it is to interact with strangers and he’d frequently had panic attacks when having to deal with workers in the service industry. He couldn’t imagine how hard it was for you when you could barely speak the language.