A Reflection on a Restless Dream and God’s Merciful Reminder
This afternoon, I woke up from a troubling dream—a dream that shook me. In it, I felt a threat to my marriage, a fear that my husband might become fond of another woman, someone who could capture his attention and affection. I was overcome with jealousy and insecurity, crying in the dream… and waking up with tears in my eyes.
But I didn’t cry for long. God gently wiped away my tears in an instant.
Still, I was left wondering: What was God trying to tell me through this dream? And this verse was His answer.
2 Samuel 14:13-14 (ERV)
13 Then the woman said, “Why have you planned these things against the people of God? When you say these things, you show you are guilty because you have not brought back the son who you forced to leave home.
14 We will all die someday. We will be like water spilled on the ground—no one can gather it back. But God does not take away life. He plans ways for those who are forced to run from Him to come back.”
Before diving into the full story of Absalom’s return, I paused to reflect on these verses alone.
In verse 13, the woman tells David that he is guilty for not bringing back his son, the one he forced to leave. That line pierced me.
It reminded me how often I claim to have moved on from the past—to have let go of jealousy, suspicion, and hurt. I even find myself encouraging others to be understanding and forgiving in their own relationships. Yet here I am, still allowing the broken fragments of old wounds to creep into the present.
Who am I to judge or advise someone who struggles to forgive, when I myself haven't truly healed? When I still carry assumptions and fears based on insecurity rather than truth? This verse reminded me that healing must start within. I must live out what I speak to others.
In verse 14, I felt the deep mercy of God. It reminded me that our Father does not cast us away when we sin. Instead, He seeks ways to restore us, to bring us back into His arms through forgiveness.
This verse challenged me. These fearful, suspicious thoughts make me want to pull away from my husband, to shut people out who don't fit into my own standards or expectations. But that’s not how God works.
God meets people where they are. He doesn’t sever ties—He builds bridges. And I am called to do the same. Rather than pushing others away, I’m called to be open, to help them grow, to love them where they are. Not from a place of fear, but from a place of grace.
