it stings that when in conversations with my friends or anyone around me i can't defend or explain asexuality of aromanticness properly cause im so scared of what'll happen if i try to defend something when it's in the "wrong". i live in malaysia where anything lgbtq is already such a loaded question and im considered so, so lucky that my friends and some teachers in my school don't treat it as taboo, in fact some are queer themselves and we have to go to hell and back to make sure no adult can no about it. i thought my friends would understand when i told them im asexual, but they all (very kindly, to be fair) told me they think im just a late bloomer. i mean, sure, that could be the case, im still figuring myself out, but it still hurts a bit that even the most accepting of people i know in real life dont believe me when i say im ace or aro. and i cant even say anything about it. what can i do? tell my parents? the teachers? the counselor? other friends? in malaysia? where i am now? im too scared of what'll happen if i fight back. i can take the dismissal, sure, but it still hurts
