Last long run done today and one week from the starting line of a marathon for which I am seriously underprepared. I have missed *a lot* of training plan workouts and runs during these past 16 weeks. Less so in these last six weeks or so, but still quite a few. A small part of me, the more sane and reasonable part, is considering dropping down to that half yet. I can decide at packet pickup the day before. But the rest of me doesn't want to take the easy way out. The rest of me wants to make this a tribute, for Keith, for suicide awareness in general, for the 22 plus 1 who tragically end their silent suffering everyday, and for those of us who are left behind to make sense of it. I am not sure I will finish sans injury. Heck I am not even 100% sure I will finish. Having a whole in my heart has made every training run so much harder to even start and more exhausting to finish. I signed up for this race at the beginning of the year with a goal to BQ my time. Today, last pre-race long run done, I can only hope to finish and meet or perhaps slightly best my barely sub-5 hour time from 10 years ago. How the course of life before me can change so much in just a decade is beyond my ability to comprehend or explain. Maybe I will figure it out somewhere on that 26.2 miles of concrete, bridges, and asphalt next week. #qcmarathon #runningtheisland #marathonmom #mysecondmarathon #suicideawarenessmonth #22plus1 #suicidewidow #stopveteransuicide Suicide/Veterans Crisis Line: 1-800-273-8255, option 1 or text 838255