out of it
You know the IT that drives you. The internal programming that keeps you on track that pays bills on time that is kind to your husband and thoughtful to friends and family. The IT that has you apply for this job instead of that one. I ran out of IT. I feel like I am not myself without IT. I have gained weight. I do not stick to things I say I will. I have no motivation to do the things that I love doing. What happened to me? The sight of what I experience is depression on its face. But my chemis and monis are firing and behaving in the normal way. So what could this be? I am on a quest to find IT and welcome IT back to its prominent place in my life. I can do this. I am fiftyonderful.
You know when nearly everything you’ve dreamt in recent years comes true, so true that you often wonder how this life you now live came to be. I am having that experience lately. In fact for at least three years now. I do not want this harvest to end. I would like to share this reaping with as many people I know and do not know as I can. I want the energy of this goodness to vibrate through out the world as far as my husband and I can reach and beyond. How do I switch from me to others? I think I need to get my house in order, actually. I have not deep cleaned in years and my lack of cleaning shows. Lack in one place creeps into other places so easily without permission or invitation. This act of hiding behind the curtain of completeness absorbs good energy that could be used to actually do something. I need IT.
