Me in middle school questioning my sexuality: okay maybe when I start high school all my peers will look more grown up and maybe then I’ll think some of them are hot???

Me after finishing high school not really thinking that any of my peers are hot: okay maybe when I start college everyone will be grown up, we’ll all be done with puberty and maybe then I’ll think some of them are hot?????

Well, since we’re not you, we can’t tell you what caused it for you, but all of those seem like reasonable reasons.

Little facial hair growth

Voice barely changed at puberty

Low sex drive

Low sp*rm count

I think so, anon! Psychosis can be brought on/triggered or highlighted by puberty and hormone changes and stress levels so yes I think it's pretty common for it to get worse as you go into adulthood, though of course everyone's experiences are different. If anyone wants to contribute to this discussion with their own experiences then go for it, I'd like to get some more views on this!

like the more solidly i understand myself and who i am, the more i realize how much i fucking hated puberty?

because no one talked to me about it. no one told me how extreme my mood swings would be. no one told me that that was a regular human experience, and that made me worried that i had a disorder, which TERRIFIED me because the last thing i wanted was to be ~~~~~~crazy~~~~~ you know?

i just didn't understand anything i didn't know what was going on i hated myself for wanting to love and wanting to have a sexual drive but not having one

dating andrew at 16 was so difficult for me because i knew what i wanted but i didn't feel any of that. i thought i was incapable of love or sexual attraction even though i recognized i had a good sex drive

in high school i thought i just wanted him for sex and i think a lot of that came from me so forcibly wanting to be a sexual being, thinking i HAD to be one

i would force myself to find actors attractive and it horrified me when i didn't or couldn't i always thought i was wrong, somehow. i didn't connect it then to a sexual or romantic identity, i thought it was tied to my very being. which it partly is but sexuality and romanticism are so fluid that while they matter they're not that big of a deal, necessarily

and freshman year i discovered asexual and aromantic and for the first time i felt so, so comfortable with an identity, that there was nothing wrong with me--and as i've grown i've realized it wouldn't have mattered if i was neuroatypical but at the time that was a worst fear for me.

but now i'm like, ok, i know who i am. my hormones have settled down, my grief has settled down, i recognize that while i have a sex drive i do not find people sexually attractive unless i really really like them, at my very core i know i'm demisexual and demiromantic, but i feel much more comfortable under the ace umbrella because that describes my daily life at college away from andrew.

and i don't feel like a part of the lgbtqia+ community just yet because i still overwhelmingly identify as straight, but maybe as a demiromantic i could actually be bi or pan, but i can't know because i've never let myself fall in love with a woman before--i've never let myself get THAT emotionally attached to a girlfriend so i have no idea, i've only just now recently thought of women as potential partners and by then i had started dating andrew again.