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okay, so, confession, i posted this as though i didn't remember the context and was surprised to find it, and while the latter is true, i definitely remember the context.
i had asked my boyfriend at the time what he wanted for christmas, and he was the kind of person who wouldn't give you an actual answer, so he said jokingly, "a statue of you made out of cheese." and obviously i couldn't send a cheese sculpture through the mail, but i thought i would send something at least thematically similar.
so i had my mom take this cheesy picture of me dressed as a pirate, and then edited out the background and put it on a cd to take to office max to get it printed. then i pasted the picture to foam board and cut it out and made a little stand to prop it up, so while it wasn't a sculpture of me, it was a silly little stand-up cutout.
sometimes i wonder if it still exists, because the thought amuses me.
except, you know, then i remember what i sent him for valentine's day one year, which was a video of me stripping, though it only showed me waist-up. he loved asking me repeatedly to play strip games over msn messenger, and i would say no and he would keep asking until i said yes, and i kept doing it even though it made me uncomfortable because i felt like it was something i was obligated to do, like that's something you should be cool with when in a relationship. and then i eventually broke up with him, and we tried to stay friends for a while and it went...badly.
and so sometimes i wonder if THAT cd is still out there somewhere, and that thought is significantly less amusing.
anyway, the point of this is: don't do stuff you're not comfortable with. i wish it hadn't taken me like, 25 years to figure this out.
i still like dressing up as a pirate, though. that hasn't changed