today was my first time explaining to an irl the fact that william afton is likely a fictotype of mine and oh god. this is so difficult cuz she was asking like, in what way im him, but even i dont know 😭😭
i don't find him relatable at all, i would NEVER in a million years do the awful shit he did, and i'm not entirely sure if i really believe i've had a past life as him.
yet, somehow i am still him?
none of the levels i know of (psychological, physical, spiritual) feel correct, yet it still feels correct to say that i'm him. but how??? how am i someone that i consider myself to be the complete opposite of??? i don't understand. Maybe i just like him a lot??? but it's not like i WANT to be him??? Like i feel a sense of guilt for being him but it wouldn't feel right to say im not him.
does anyone have a word or explanation for this, or does anyone share this experience? i wanna know how this makes any sense💔
(i also identify similarly with some of my kintypes in the way that i don't apply to any of the "levels" yet i still identify as them on some way, i just don't know how. but i didn't start really trying to figure this out until now because this is my first time trying to navigate having a ficto/kintype of a character that is just downright evil and i don't want people to get the wrong idea about me, so im tryna find some kind of proper explanation i can have for my own peace of mind💔)
