Iโve never really learned how to cope with paranoia, especially paramisia related paranoia.
One thing is having my trust betrayed by people who I thought were against theriform animal and chrono child abuse but were proven to commit or support it, which has made me bitter to the bigger figures and circles in the space, another is having experienced so much casual paramisia that it has made me deathly afraid of my friends not accepting me and people in my irl life finding out about my attraction.
I was and still am so happy to express myself, but my paranoia has really affected my ability to post without shaking in fear, i wish it wasnโt so hard. I wanna create more art so bad but I feel watched whenever I do, I feel like Iโm only one post away from having my life ruined.
Im not giving up, im still gonna post once im on break, i just needed to get that out. If anyone has felt similarly to this, just know ur not alone and that I get your struggles, I really do.