#pride2k18

Disclaimer: I have no idea what I’m doing  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  

I do know that a) dating while asexual is complicated, and I want to laugh about it, and b) dating while asexual is complicated, and I wish there were more stories out there to learn and take heart from. So here’s mine.

So, @greekdemigodwannabe, you said you wanted the essay so Im giving you the essay I mentally wrote when I wrote this post

Guys....go out there and live your lives. Suck a dick, get your dick sucked, eat pussy, get your pussy eaten. Fucking LIVE. In this essay I will explain to you why you must be you and live you to the fullest.

June 12, 2016, a shooting occurred in Orlando, Florida by some one who I will not name because that gives him credit. This shooting occurred because this man believed that these people deserved death, because they were gay. Now, how does that make any sense in relation to this essay, it doesn’t, I just felt that it needed to be brought up again because some people seemingly forgot.

So, why should you live your life to the fullest? I am a 15 year old girl, I grew up on the internet where it was normalized to be odd, to be weird and that’s who I am. I am a panromantic girl who grew up thinking liking girls and not having kids one day would be weird. I grew up thinking I had to fit this STANDARD of the world. And here is where the something else starts. This essay idea is idiotic, yes, but it gave me a shot to do this. I’m gonna write all my flaws, then contradict them. Im gonna try to make this a thing (hopefully someone follows along and does this) ((cough cough @regular-mexican-girl)). im doing this to show that yes, everyone has their flaws, but living their life to the fullest includes these problems society has with you and seeing that they arent problems, they are what make you you. I really meant this is a mess

Hi, Im Yariellis A. Gomez. Im fifteen, Im panromantic. And here is what’s wrong with me

- Im fat. Not chubby, fat. But weight isn’t everything. Im one hell of a dancer, I’m super flexible, Im me.

-I’m not pretty. I don’t have the face of someone who people fall in love with upon first sight. I have messy hair and a chubby face and my eyes are really tiny. But looks aren’t everything. I’m funny, I can make people laugh by doing the most stupid things like aggressively playing my ukulele or making fun of famous people 

-I’m not good at style. I wear the ugliest clothes or the most revealing clothes because there is nothing in my size that looks good on me. But clothes aren’t everything. I’m good at design. I do stupid little drawings where I draw clothes and I’m okay at it. Not amazing, no, but good.

-I’m no good at flirting or getting people to date me. I’m really bad at talking to people and generally just not attractive or funny or anything enough to get the girl(s) I like currently to like me back. But relationships aren’t everything. I have a really good connection with my dad, i tell him literally everything about me because there is no one else for me to tell and that’s wonderful. I tell him about musicals and stuff and he gets it.

-I’m a loser. I don’t do sports, Im a musical theater kid, I have about one good friend who texts me on a normal basis ( @regular-mexican-girl ) and literally no one else. But I’m happy with that. I’ve made a few on-off friends over my time in musical theater and I enjoy their company

-I’m a softie. I fall in love so quickly then get my heartbroken even quicker. Im very weak emotionally even though I seem like this super tough person on the outside. But that’s okay. I can have breakdowns, I can not be okay because everyone can feel bad every once in a while.