But firstâŠ
Have you ever wanted to be frustrated with God?
Have you ever wanted to feel like your prayers are a waste of time?
Of course not. No one does. And yet, just about all of us set ourselves up to be frustrated with God.
It happens when we set preconditions on God. When we tell God how He has to do things. When we do, weâre not changing God one bit.
What we are doing is changing ourselves. Locking ourselves into our wisdom, what we think is best, our ideas. Getting our vanity tied up with how things have to be done.
Meaning that if God does anything other that exactly how we see things happening? Weâre not able to receive it. Even if itâs better. Because itâs not how weâve decided that it has to happen.
And youâre thinking, âThat ridiculous, no one does that.â
Youâre right. Because just about no one sets out to put preconditions on God.
And yet, this is still a problem. Because just about all of us do put preconditions on God. We just do it in much more subtle ways.
Like what we see in todayâs Gospel.
Where the response to Jesus isnât an outright âno.â But it isnât exactly a âyesâ either.
Itâs more of âlet me take care of this other thing, then Iâll get to you Jesus.â
Where, maybe without really meaning to, Jesus gets put in second place. Or maybe third or fourth.
Because theyâre just so caught up in themselves and what theyâre doing. That Jesus has to take a number. And wait His turn.
A point thatâs so beautifully captured in the first two words of one manâs response to Jesus â âBut firstâŠâ
Once weâre at that point, itâs a very short step (really, more of an unavoidable slide). From expecting someone who we (in our own minds) have already made wait on us. To do things our way.
Which is a great way to set ourselves up not only to be disappointed in God. When God doesnât do things our way.
But also to miss Godâs best for our lives. Because weâre so stuck in our own ideas about how things have to be, that we miss it when God gives us better than we could ever imagine.
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