⚠️WARNING⚠️

Many before me have said, if you really cannot stand the thought of waiting, bring it to God. Pray about it, maybe then you can work on having more patience.

Because I was in a point in my life where I took literally every suggestion given to me… I thought how bad could it really be? So, sure enough that’s what I did. Now I ask myself so many questions relating to it. Could that be the reason I don’t have my own car yet? Could it be because I don’t have this or that?

However when it comes down to it, I don’t have a car or anything else that has come to mind because time is of the essence, essentially. In the past couple of months time, I had a Saint Francis case worker involved in my life some. Which wasn’t anything bad per say. However she put something in perspective for me.

“ I gave my last vehicle away.”

Which she’s right in a sense. Due to my actions and inability to take proper care of myself a handful of years ago, with my actions I gave my truck away. For free..

How does this tie into having patience?

You see, I want nothing more than to have a car. However, it takes a lot of work and effort to get one back after having lost one. It’s okay, as the way I see it is it’s just not the right time for me to fully have my own car. Who knows what my devious brain would come up with doing with it- especially when time isn’t right for me yet.

I’m okay with it because I know that some day- I’ll have my own car. I may not know when that day will be, but I know it’s coming.

Today I can honestly say that as long as I can count on something happening- then there’s no need to rush. Instead I simply enjoy being in the moment at hand.

This past week has been the week leading up to Christmas. Do I want to celebrate? Of freaking course!! I’m all for having good times this time of year. It’s about the memories!! Are gifts crucial? No not always, but they add to the element of surprise. I absolutely love the element of surprise, especially when we are referring to gifts! Do I want to open all of them up right now?? Absolutely-fucking-lutely!! But I don’t, because I’m okay waiting. Weather it be Christmas Day, Christmas Eve or on New Year’s Day, that those gifts get opened, I honestly can tell you I don’t care today. Because I know it will happen. Just not in my first choice of timing.

I’m going to leave you with the question today-

ARE YOU GOING TO PRAY FOR PATIENCE?

I’m warning you. If you do- be prepared to have so many tests of your faith. You can do it though!! As in the end, it will be so worth it, as long as it’s in your best timing. Your future self will thank you.