Guess what? You’re right.
I’ve always had that inherent feeling that I was always wrong. I had an internalised feeling that I would never have enough knowledge or have a valid opinion that I can share, people would be interested in or consider valid. I never found myself at the forefront of decision making. Whether it was personal or for others. I always look for a second opinion. I have almost no confidence in myself and I never even noticed!
And then, I realised it was the toxic household I was raised in that got me to subconsciously internalise all these thoughts, habits of essentially self-destruction and a loop of unending self-doubt and almost non-existent self-worth. I have parents who never valued an opinion I shared or refused to listen to what I would say because they know better; “How dare you teach me?” was and still is a constant echo. I had no way to escape. But I have to. I have to push through to leave this behind.
