#postdump

Since I won’t be drawing traditional Art anymore, drawing digital again seems like a nice refresher but, I didn’t realise it would be different for my hand cause I’m use to drawing traditional, I always wanted to draw Digital and I did but my old tablet broke.

And let bones fester

Your Nerves exposed

Cleansed in clear air

Excavate this heart of thine

See how it pumps

So fruitless

Harsh cause it was uncalled for? Yes.

But remember to get back up and show Life that they kick like a bitch.

shoot. i don't usually blog and whatever here but i just need to dump everything out like i did before but yeah.  i don't really know how i'm going to start this but i'ma just ramble on about how different...how changed all these things are now.  like just wow.  this is probably by 42nd post about me feeling like this, but i love this change in a sense.

although i'm much more different than i was years ago, in a sense i also embrace that.  a little bit of dickish behavior didn't hurt anyone more than me.  but i learn from it.  it's an experience if i have to call it that. my intentions are always good and i always know that- and i somehow hope people understand that.  eh.  idk.  as you can probably tell i'm quite indecisive and unfocused as i'm typing this dump post.  however,

i feel free like a seagull out in the ocean blue though, like my mind is out there somewhere, trying to touch the sky.  trying to reach the core of the sun.  musically, i've been at it.  it's great.  i'm so happy about everything that ihrbki and myself have been doing. studying and watching all these interviews, motivational-related type film reels, it's just great.  tony the tiger says it for me though, so no need for me to say it.  praying hard that this youth concert will not only help the philippines but also the people.  it's a true blessing actually; these practices all september through november have been a real treat to my work ethic and performing ethic.  it is, truly a blessing i'm thankful for that i'm able to play music.  i love music.  it's my life and it's what i live for.

this senior paper man.  regardless of the dreadful process, i love doing it in a sense- i just like researching and stacking up all this information in cards.  it's like racking up ammo.  that's how cool it is.  lately i've been appreciating my education more than ever and i just absolutely love soaking in all this cool information and facts.  even though most are trivial, it just enhances my peripheral vision and my actual perspective on everything.

life is cool/life is gunt.