#poor fizz

Don't worry, babe. It's not like I'm gonna get kidnapped today or anything.

Fizzarolli, on the bottom bunk painfully wide awake:

Although Fizz having a panic attack and saying he feels worthless if he doesn't have his fame/the contract with Mammon is absolutely heartbreaking, the amount of time Fizz brushes off or rejects Ozzie touching him makes the scene all the sadder to me. ;_; With each one, you can see Ozzie looking more and more concerned and with physical touch being a big part of their relationship and comforting one another (since as far as we've learned, Fizz's prosthetics can't feel and that's why they do so many forehead touches and nuzzles), to see Fizz push Ozzie away when he's trying to find out what's wrong, offer comfort and show he's there for Fizz, it breaks my heart too. ;_; ;_; ;_; I know Fizz didn't want to admit there was a problem or the real reason why he needed to win the competition and that pressing someone in distress doesn't always help, especially if it's something they're not ready to talk about, but Fizz was clearing doing more harm than good to himself here by keeping it bottled up along with the constant pressure and worry to be perfect. ;_; ;_; ;_;

I wouldn't be surprised if that's the main reason why Ozzie takes it slow before he tries the final time to offer comfort to Fizz, so as to first give Fizz the verbal reassurance that he is an amazing performer and that Ozzie truly does loves him in order for him to hopefully accept it. <3<3<3<3

Okay, this scene may be incredibly sad with Fizz having his panic attack and because of what happens next, but Ozzie getting stuck in the door is objectively funny. XD (It probably happens more times than he'd like to admit too ;) XD ).

Also:

One of the things that I absolutely loved about the new episode was of course Ozzie confessing to everyone that he loves Fizz, but it also had a brief heartbreaking/oh f*ck moment at Fizz actually wavering on his resolve to leave Mammon as soon as he mentioned blackmailing them about their relationship. ;_; Both Fizz and Ozzie were worried when Mammon brought it up, but I love how fast Ozzie was quick to rebuff Mammon's threat and fight back on how he doesn't care anymore. ^_^<3<3<3 He refused to let that information be held over him and Fizz any longer, of which I wouldn't be surprised if Mammon had used it to make demands against Ozzie on more than one occasion, as well as more importantly, it would give Fizz his freedom away from Mammon that he has been desperately wanting for him for roughly a decade or so; he's also probably tired of hiding it since 10 years is a long time and a lot of effort to keep something under wraps. :/ But it's still just so sad that Fizz appeared to actually consider staying in his awful arrangement with Mammon in order to save Ozzie reputation, only to then be worried/surprised that Ozzie was willing to make that sacrifice for him to come out instead of keeping the secret they've spent so long hiding.

Let me start off by saying F*CK YOU MAMMON!!!! >:( >:( >:(

Okay now, I LOVED THIS EPISODE because as much at it broke my heart with how much of a gut punch it was that Fizz has been putting up with Mammon for years, the fact that he got his freedom at the end with the constant support of Blitz and Ozzie, who genuinely care about him melted my heart as well. ^_^

I knew going in I was going to hate Mammon (because with how he runs his ring, I couldn't see how he could have any redeeming qualities), but he seriously was a bigger abusive d*ck and was way more blatant about than I expected. >:( Poor Fizz right off the bat with his unhealthy work ethic that he's not good enough and that his value is tied into his work, something that many of us (me included) have been guilty of. I blame Cash for being the most likely factor in why Fizz thinks that way, along with his idol worship of Mammon playing into it. >:( Also, that creep getting in Fizz's head was so messed up because we come to see how genuinely nice Fizz is and he sadly let what that guy said get into his head. ;_;

I'm so glad that Ozzie from the start is looking out for Fizz's well being and mental health, which is also really sad because he has no doubt had this conversation many times with Fizz about not needing to please Mammon and that he is good enough, only for Fizz to insist everything's fine when it's not. ;_; I also had a feeling Ozzie wouldn't be a fan of the Robo Fizzes given that he loves Fizz so much and knows what people use them for, so most likely it's part of the whole blackmail deal/Ozzie can't break out of making them so long as Fizz doesn't call it quits. ;_; I'm also happy that Ozzie clearly harbors no ill-will towards Blitz (which we already saw in "Oops," but it's nice that he knows Blitz wouldn't like the state Fizz is in and needs to cut ties with Mammon). :)

Fizz is just so talented with his craft, but the further pressure that he had actual competition from Glitz and Glam just made things so much worse, but of course Mammon don't care. >:( One of the absolute best moments though had to be the sweet little deaf kid signing to Fizz and Fizz signing back as well as sign his picture, so it was sweet and it helped Fizz's mental state temporarily. It was unfortunate that flipping creep came back and messed with Fizz once again, only adding to Fizz's panic attack that goes into overdrive once he sees Glitz and Glam perform. ;_;

My sadness only built as Fizz spiraled and tried to make himself "fine," but my man Ozzie being there as soon as he hears (from Blitz no doubt) that Fizz is not okay and him not leaving until he can get to the bottom of way Fizz is so adamant about doing this while trying to comfort him was wonderful. I legit cried, as I'm sure many of you did, when poor Fizz admits that he feels like practically nothing next to Ozzie and that without his job and the fame, he'd eventually leave Fizz despite how many years they've known each other and how much Ozzie does to remind Fizz that he loves him for who he is. ;_; ;_; ;_; It's sad too that Fizz has put up with the year of abuse because he felt he owed Mammon for leading him Ozzie, even though that's certainly not true. It really brought it in home just how much trauma Fizz has suffered and affected his mental state. I can only imagine how bad it'd be if he really didn't have Ozzie in his life. O_O The sweet, honest words from Ozzie afterward just reinforced my belief that Ozzie is the best boyfriend and their song "Crooked" was so saturated with lovey-dovey sentiment, I went awwww so many times and shows how lucky they are to have each other. ^_^<3<3<3

Ozzie Headcanon:

Ozzie for sure doesn't like Mammon's clown pageant, but I'm betting he doesn't like competitions in general. Ozzie's someone who's about pleasure, fun and passion, and in truth, competition can take all those aspects away when it becomes about winning and needing to prove that one is better than all the rest. (I mean just look at Fizz's poor face here on the second one ;_;). Plus, by having someone win and claim that they are "the best" and is what everyone should aspire to, it diminishes the value and uniqueness each individual person has because of their flaws and imperfections as well as can make them feel like they're less when they don't meet that standard. We already know how Ozzie feels when Fizz says he needs to be perfect. ;_;