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♫ Mamma Mia- ABBA

tagged: sierra.deaton, crystal.leigh, luke.5sos, michael.5sos

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Keeping it reel at the lake 🎣

fan7 so do we think that Ashton and Calum just weren't invited or that she didn't tag them 😂

fan8 just imagining them sitting in LA when all their friends are in Minnesota with their ex fan7 they won (Y/N) in the divorce

crystal.leigh Michael and I had a blast!

yourusername we have to get together soon!! I miss you guys 😔

fan9 who had the worst wipeout while tubing??!!

fan10 my bet is Luke. He's just so lanky ♥︎ liked by michael.5sos

michael.5sos did you mean to post this on your public story 😂

calum.5sos motherfucker

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♫ Mamma Mia- ABBA

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good to be home!

fan11 if I had a pool, I too would be having parties every weekend ♥︎ liked by creator

fan12 no way we're already getting a new album 😂 when does this girl sleep?!?!?

yourusername as of recently? never

fan13 why is no one talking about the last slide!!! She HAS to be with Calum and Ashton!!!

fan14 they've been on and off since she was like 16😂 There was very little chance that they WEREN'T getting back together

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had a busy summer! folklore's sister album evermore out november 13th!

fan when does this girl sleep?!!

fan fr!! two albums in like 6 months!! plus she was just on tour!!!

sierra.deaton I had so much fun working with you!!

yourusername i had so much fun working with you! ♥︎ liked by sierra.deaton

“you’ve actually never had a threesome, y/n?” calum asked you. “no offense, but you’re kinda a whore.” he laughed. 

“shut up,” you said, throwing a pillow towards him. “some of us aren’t kinky freaks.”.

“i mean, he didn’t lie.” luke shrugged. 

you chuckled, kissing luke’s cheek. luke was definitely your closest thing to a “partner”, but there was definitely some erotic tension within the band. you’d shared makeouts with them all, and sometimes two of  the boys, but you hadn’t done anything further than that with anyone besides luke. 

“who here thinks y/n should have a threesome or moresome?” michael asked, ever the kinky one. 

the band was currently over at ashton’s house, trading song ideas and lyrics for the upcoming album, CALM. somehow, probably because of the talk over wildflower, the topic of conversation had changed from the album to sex and kinks. you didn’t mind, if anything, you rather enjoyed it. you’d been in the kink scene in your local community and online for a while, and the talk of having a hookup with more than one person excited you. 

“oh, i absolutely do,” ashton said finally, gnawing on his lip. “she needs it.”.

“says who?” you asked. “you?”.

luke snorted. “you know ashton loves to be in control. . .on stage and in the bedroom.”.

“i dunno, luke. you weren’t saying that after the youngblood release party,” calum scooted closer to the blond. “i definitely wrote ‘i love the way you’re screaming my name’ about that.”.

luke flushed, burying his face in your side. you knew he hooked up with the other guys every now and then, and for some reason, the thought turned you on more than it annoyed you. the blond was more often your dom than your sub, and the idea of him submitting to someone else was a very pretty image. 

“fine,” you said, cutting right to the chase. “i’ll do it. but you guys have to help.” you smirked, watching as their faces dropped. 

“are you actually serious right now?” michael asked, his dick hardening at the scene that was practically dangling in front of his face like luring a dog in with a delicious treat. 

“i am,” you nodded solemnly. “what? you guys are hot. just because you’re my bandmates doesn’t mean i can’t say that.”.

michael moaned, half joking half serious, laying himself on top of you and luke, placed perfectly so that you could both feel his raging hard-on. “that’s so fuckin’ hot.”.

“you’re a slut, michael.” calum groaned, before leaning in to softly suckle on michael’s pale, milky neck while using his right hand to slowly palm luke’s lap. 

the scene in front of you was already making your pussy throb with excitement and you crossed your legs, watching it unfold. before you knew it, ashton had come to sit beside you on his large, L-shaped couch. 

“not participating in the fun, sweetheart?” he asked you. “this is about you, y’know.” he hummed in your ear, voice husky. 

“oh,” you moaned softly as ashton ran his hand up and down your thigh. “um. . .”.

michael and luke looked at you when they heard you moan. being a bit more submissive than ashton and calum, they were eager to please you. luke pulled slightly away from calum, just enough to run his tongue across your jawline and lips, slowly inserting into your mouth and beginning to make out with you. by this point, all five of you were touching each other somehow; the whole scene was definitely leading to something more, hence why ashton stood up suddenly, hands on hips. 

“luke, michael, y/n. bedroom, now. we’ll be with you in a minute.” he said, nodding towards calum and asserting his “dominant” voice that you’d heard stories about. 

michael immediately scampered off, eager to have someone dom him and take control, but you and luke hung back a bit, eyeing each other. 

“are you two deaf?” calum asked. “go.”.

“what if i wanna dom?” luke asked as he licked his lips, ever the brat. 

“gee, luke,” ash hummed nonchalantly. “i wouldn’t want to have to punish you in front of y/n, now would i?”.

luke blushed a bright pink, looking over at you. “i promise i’m a switch.”.

“yeah, like twenty percent of the time,” calum snorted, teasing him. “now go.”.

you both looked at each other and giggled a bit. you took the blond’s hand and led him to ashton’s large primary bedroom. your face was already flushed and your sex was throbbing at the thought of watching luke get punished by either ashton or calum or both. michael had already propped himself up with a few silken pillows, completely naked and panting heavily as he tried to refrain from touching himself. 

“you really are a pro at being a whore, aren’t you?” you asked him. 

michael nodded his head, whining softly. “mmmmm, luke.” he moaned. 

luke laid down on the bed, patting the spot next to him for you to sit down. “awww, you want me to fuck you and have y/n watch? wanna get humiliated in front of the hot girl?” he asked, trailing his fingers up and down michael’s bare thighs. 

the green eyed-boy nodded, looking up at luke through his lashes. “uh huh.”.

you blushed, kissing luke’s neck. “go on. do it. humiliate him.” you smirked. 

luke turned towards you, pausing his seducing of mike. “you need to be a good girl first. strip.” he commanded.

you bowed your head and slowly pulled off your shirt, making sure luke and michael were watching. after you had tugged your shirt off, you turned your back so that luke could unclasp your bra. once he had done so, luke tugged off his own clothes, eyeing both you and michael in a seductive way.

“help please?” you asked him in a sultry voice, fluttering your lashes. 

luke smirked, landing a smack to your ass before undoing your bra and tossing it onto michael. “good fuckin’ girl.”.

you blushed and then slid your pants off, doing the same thing with your underwear. within just a few seconds, both your panties and your bra were draped across michael. the whole scene was like something out of a pornographic film, and you knew that ashton and calum would definitely be mad, but that wasn’t stopping the three of you. 

“kneel, baby.” luke said, denying michael of any attention that he was so desperately whining and moaning for. 

you immediately did as luke asked, blushing. “yes, sir.”.

luke eyed you up and down one time before smirking. “good girl. now watch.”.

he turned to michael and began to palm his dick, leaving hickeys across the boy’s pale tummy. you couldn’t help but to feel turned on by the scene, your stomach tightening as you watched luke’s fingers and large yet delicate hands work michael’s dick. michael began to moan, throwing his head back and wiggling against the sheets. 

“i know you can do it.” luke told michael as he pumped him harder.

you were practically ready to cum yourself as you watched michael grip handfuls of the sheets in his hands as he tried so desperately not to release. luke wasn’t showing the green eyed boy any mercy and it was hot. 

“oh god, luke.” he whimpered. 

“ah ah, be good for your guest.” luke told him. 

michael whined, wriggling and thrusting his hips. you crossed your legs and bit your lips, knowing you would be next for luke if you didn’t listen. even if he was a switch, luke always pushed you as a dom, but you loved it. finally, luke decided he’d had enough of torturing michael. he gave him one last thrust of the hand before speaking. 

“go ahead, honey. show y/n how pretty you are when you cum.” luke taunted, running his pointer finger down michael’s tear-stained cheek. 

he didn’t need to be told twice; michael immediately let go, covering his tummy and thighs, as well as luke’s chest in thick, white, ropes of cum. the boy panted as he rode out his high, grasping onto luke’s forearms. 

“huh huh…” he panted. “thank you.” he moaned tiredly, smiling up at luke with a sleepy, fucked out smile. 

“you’re welcome. good boy.” luke cooed, kissing his forehead. 

when you heard luke talk like that, you immediately let out a moan, crawling across the mountain of sheets towards him. “need you.” you whimpered. 

“did I tell you you could move?” luke asked, raising a brow. 

you shook your head, looking down at the bed. “no, ‘m sorry.”.

luke lifted your chin in his hand, glaring down at you. “you will ask me for permission in the future.”.

you nodded, a blush speckling your cheeks. “i understand.”.

“i think you need a little punishment, babydoll.” luke said, as he bent to reach into ashton’s nightstand. 

despite this not being his house, there had been many hookups in this room, and luke knew exactly where ashton kept his condoms. he retrieved one from the drawer, pulling it out of the wrapper and rolling it onto michael’s still-erect cock. the blond nodded between you two before sitting back and crossing his arms. 

“well, since you two wanted to be so naughty, go for it. i’ll join in when i feel like it.” luke said with a sneer. 

you and michael looked at each other, before the boy eventually bounded across the king-sized bed to you. 

“you’re so pretty, y/n.” he whispered, dipping his head. 

“on top.” you commanded michael, knowing that would leave a way for luke to join in, which you so desperately wanted. 

he slowly did as you asked, sliding himself between your wet folds and jerking back instantly, in an almost teasing way. “is this okay?”.

“it’s perfect.” you panted out, so beyond horny. 

suddenly, michael slammed into you in a way that you didn’t know he was capable of. he began to ride you, moaning loudly and throwing his head back. you quickly joined in, the tightness of your pussy and the way michael looked so pretty looking down at you making you so much more sensitive than usual. 

before long, you were already near orgasm. his hips continued to grind into yours, the sound of his balls hitting your ass echoing around the room. you wondered what ashton and calum were doing that they hadn’t heard what was going on, but right now, you didn’t care. 

“oh,” you whimpered. “oh, mike. gonna cum.”.

“not yet,” luke said out of the blue, straddling michael’s hips from behind. “you’re not cumming until i say so. both of you.”

the blond immediately slammed into michael’s pretty, pink hole with no lube or condom, making the boy cry out in a mixture of pleasure and pain. the scene was vulgar. michael was topping you, panting heavily as luke edged him, all three of you letting out sensual, seductive moans, whimpers, and pants. 

“gonna cum.” you and michael cried at nearly the same time. 

luke was also nearing his climax, but he was much more skilled at holding his in and being edged than you two were. 

“go ahead, y/n. cum for…” michael’s sentence was interrupted by the door flying open. 

“what is this?” calum asked, surveying the scene. 

luke immediately pulled out of michael and kneeled, looking down at the bed. “sorry…” he whispered. 

michael did the same, quickly covering himself with the sheets and hiding his face in a throw pillow. you straightened up, trying oh-so-desperately to clench your legs. the way the boys had interrupted you three was perhaps the cruelest form of edging there was. 

“save it, luke. you know what happens to naughty boys.” ashton sneered, sitting down on the bed and giving luke’s blond curls a slight tug. 

luke whined, his head becoming fuzzy as he slipped into subspace. michael was already in his headspace, but the way calum, who was his regular dom, was looking at him made him sink further and further in.

“i think luke and michael need to watch,” ash stated. “i know they’re the ones that started it. they’re just little sluts, right, boys?”.

luke nodded his head slowly, blushing. “yes, sir.”.

michael didn’t speak, but nodded his head, giggling softly.

“good job,” ash patted each of their knees, before roughly grabbing your hips and pulling you closer to him. “as for you. . .”

he began to make out with you passionately, pinning you to the bed as calum stroked your inner thighs, exciting your nerves. you had never gone further than a drunken makeout with either of the boys, but you were so horny and so close to cumming at the current moment that they were absolutely turning you on. 

“look at her,” calum said, placing kisses on your thighs. “so desperate for cock.”.

you moaned into ashton's kisses, tugging on calum’s curls. the entire scene was beyond hot. all five of you were spread out across ashton’s large bed. luke and michael were sitting at the foot of it, completely naked and trying not to touch themselves as they watched the doms make out with you. calum was caressing your thighs with both his hands and his lips, kissing along your slit ever so teasingly. 

ashton had your arms pinned to the bed and was heatedly making out with you, every so often tugging on your hair. “you want me, baby? want my cock inside your pretty little pussy?”.

you whimpered and nodded, tensing and clenching your legs as calum hit a particularly sensitive spot. “oh…”.

“i’ll save the best for last. let cal have his fun. you two,” he nodded over at luke and michael. “get cleaned up and in pajamas. you’re going to bed without getting off, sweets. that’s what happens when you get the princess in trouble.” ashton’s tone was firm, but he did press a kiss to luke and michael’s forehead as they trudged into the bathroom. 

ashton leaned back against the headboard and pulled his shirt off, smirking to himself as he watched calum’s tongue edge closer and closer to your opening. the raven-haired boy crouched fully and slowly began to run his tongue along your folds, licking over your clit. 

if there was one thing calum was famous for in the bedroom, it was not giving a warning. he began to eat you out without a word, tongue thrusting in and out of your hole and going over your clit. you locked your legs around his head, crying out. 

“cal. feels so good.” you nearly hollered. 

he smirked, lifting his head up so he could speak. “need to cum already, princess?”.

you nodded your head, gripping the sheets and throwing your head back as deep, throaty moans elicited from your mouth. 

“not a chance.” he smirked, landing a smack to your ass as he ate you out faster and harder. 

by this point, tears were practically streaking down your cheeks. the lingering feeling of being edged earlier, combined with how good calum’s tongue felt against your sensitive nerves was pushing you over the edge. 

“please, need to cum.” you cried. 

“i know you can hold it, baby girl.” he moaned, the vibrations just feeding the feeling even more. 

you shoved your face into your hand as you cried, bucking your hips up. calum was just making you feel so, so good that your brain was overloaded. “please.”.

eventually, calum decided he’d had his fun with you. you’d been such a good girl, and for that, you deserved to cum. “go ahead, baby. cum all over my face.” he hummed. 

you immediately did as told, thrusting closer to him as you let go, your arousal coating his face. calum lifted his head up and smirked, wiping the liquid from his eyes. “good fuckin’ girl. she’s a good one, ash.” he said to his bandmate as he pulled off his shirt. 

you blushed, dipping your head as you caught your breath. “thank you.”.

ashton smirked, practically ripping off his pants after seeing what a good sub you were. “i want you to watch while i have my fun, cal. enjoy yourself.” he chuckled. 

although calum was also a dom, ashton had fallen into the role of lead dom for this particular scene. the brown-eyed boy removed his clothes when ashton spoke, ready to get off on the image unfolding before his eyes. 

the honey blond removed his pants fully before towering over your exhausted frame on his knees. you blushed as you eyed him up and down, staying a minute on his dick. he was much bigger than luke and michael and as you glanced over, bigger than calum as well. 

“suck.” ashton demanded. 

you moved yourself to your knees, kneeling before ashton and fluttering your lashes up at him. “okay.” you smiled shyly. 

you put his tip in your mouth, running your tongue over the head. slowly, you took more and more of ashton’s cock into your mouth. you were bobbing your head and sucking him off rhythmically, giving him quite good head. eventually, you reached the back of your throat and tried not to gag. the last bit of ashton’s nine inch dick that you couldn’t fit in your mouth, you began to pump with your right hand. 

“good girl.” ashton moaned, throwing his head back. 

you began to bob your head faster and harder, matching the erotic noises coming from calum’s mouth beside you as he got himself off. by this point, michael and luke had returned from the bathroom where they had cleaned themselves up and were watching the current threesome with wide eyes. they were so used to being dommed by ashton and calum that although they weren’t getting fucked themselves, watching them fuck you was a treat in itself. 

“oh baby, makin’ me feel so good.” ash said, tugging on your hair and wiggling his hips.

you looked up at him and tried to smile, giving him one last suck as you felt his dick twitch, indicating his need to cum. 

“gonna cum, baby.” he panted. 

ashton pulled your hair tightly one more time before releasing, all of his cum shooting down your throat. you pulled off his dick, wiping your mouth with the back of your hand and smiling. you were absolutely exhausted and the feeling of ashton’s cum coating your throat was making you feel beyond good. 

“thank you.” you whispered. 

“you’re such a good girl.” ashton cooed, kissing your forehead. 

just as he said that, calum reached his own climax and came in his hand, moaning loudly. he smirked as he realized the other four of you had just watched him get off and based on the lustful looks in all of your eyes, you had enjoyed it. 

“that’s so hot…” luke whispered, blue eyes wide. 

ashton pulled a pack of baby wipes out of his nightstand and pulled a few out before passing the pack to luke. “help with aftercare, sweet boy.”

the blond began to wipe down calum’s chest and hand, leaving kisses along his tanned body as michael wrapped him in a cuddle. ashton did the same for you, wiping down your mouth and chest, making sure to praise you and leave kisses all over your body. he quickly wiped himself down before laying down and pulling you into his chest. 

you two scooted over to where michael, luke, and calum were laying. “band cuddle,” you giggled sleepily. “thank you guys. for helping me have my first group hookup.” you chuckled. 

“we should get y/n’s moans sampled into a song,” luke suggested. “that would sell so many fuckin’ records.”.

you giggled quietly, leaning over and planting a kiss on his cheek. “i love you guys. all of you.”.

It had been a long day, a long week really. Your boss had asked you to do just a little bit of overtime. Since Calum and Luke had been spending a lot of time at the studio, working on the new album, you said yes.

You thought it would be a good distraction from them not being home so much, and it was at first. After a couple of weeks, it started cutting into the small amount of time you were able to spend with the two of them.

Calum and Luke constantly reassured you that they would still make sure the three of you had time together. Even so, it was killing you.

You had finally gotten off a normal time and rushed home only to be met with an empty driveway. You unlock your phone to text them and see you already have a message.

cal <3: hey sweets, we’re gonna be home later than we thought. we’ll make it up to you, promise. we love you ♥️

It’s enough to make you cry, even though you try your hardest not to. When you finally walk inside, you are greeted by Duke and Petunia.

They followed you through the house all the way upstairs, while you changed into one of Luke’s tee shirts and your shorts, and back downstairs to take them out to the yard.

You couldn’t help the tears forming in your eyes. It felt dramatic but knowing you were going to come home to both of your boyfriends was what had gotten you through the day.

You sat outside with the dogs for a while, only going back in when it started to feel chilly. Just as you came inside, you had another text.

lu <3: i miss you, baby, we’re almost done. we’ll be home as soon as we can, love you 🤍

Having been with Calum and Luke for so long you knew that “almost done” could mean anywhere from the next 5 minutes to the next 5 hours.

Sighing, you curled up on the couch. Duke and Petunia joined you, watching a random show that had come on with the TV. After having such a long day, sleep came easily, even though you didn’t intend it to.

-

“Baby, we’re home!” Luke spoke loudly, yet it still didn’t wake you.

“Where is- oh.” Calum’s gaze softened as he spotted you asleep on the couch.

“Should we let them sleep?” Luke’s voice quieted down, trying not to wake you.

Calum nodded in response, grabbing a blanket and placing it on top of you before placing a kiss on your forehead. The feeling of the blanket atop you was enough to make you stir. As Calum and Luke moved to lay with you, the couch shifting caused you to wake up.

“Oh honey, are you awake?”

You mumbled a bit before sitting up, starting to wake up.

“You’re home?” Your voice was still sleepy, bringing out a soft smile on Calum’s face.

“Yeah sweets, we’re home. We brought dinner, do you wanna eat?” You nodded at his words.

As Luke went into the kitchen, you followed behind, stretching your legs. While Luke got plates out, Calum wrapped an arm around your waist and you leaned into his touch.

The silence was nice, even though all you had wanted to do all day was talk to them face to face. Luke’s curls were messy atop his head, you knew he must’ve been frustrated and ran his hands through his hair.

Calum rubbed small circles into your hips as the three of you stood in the kitchen. He held you tight against him. Even though he wouldn’t always admit it, he loved this kind of affection. Once the three of you finally got settled on the couch together, you broke the silence.

“How was the studio today, babes?” Luke’s eyes practically lit up when you asked.

“It was definitely… rough at first but the song is finally done. We were stumped on the instrumental but Cal came up with this killer bass line.” Calum’s face flushed, he finished taking a bite of his food before replying.

“Yeah, but you and Mike worked out the melody. you can’t give all of that credit to me.” Luke sighed at Calum. His inability to just take a compliment killed you both.

“Either way, I’m proud of you two. I know you guys were having a difficult time with it.”

The rest of your dinner is spent talking about their day, which you loved hearing about. Calum offers to do the dishes and Luke cuddles up with you on the couch.

“How was your day honey?” He spoke softly, his hand running through your hair. You sighed, it had been such a day and the last thing you wanted was to think about it.

Luke picked up on that right away, kissing your forehead before speaking. “It’s okay if you don’t want to talk about it, we’re home now baby. We’ve got you okay?” You nod.

Calum joined the two of you on the couch, resting his head on Luke’s shoulder and placing an arm around you.

“I missed you guys today.” It’s a simple statement but they know it’s more than that.

You felt tears fill your eyes as they instinctively pulled you closer. They didn’t push you to speak. Just holding you and pressing soft kisses anywhere they could.

“You can talk to us, baby.” Calum spoke softly as if you’d be hurt if he spoke any louder.

“It was just a long day then you weren't home and you're almost done with the album so then you’ll be gone on tour and it's just so much.” By the time you finish speaking, you’re crying.

“Honey, breathe. We’re still a long way from any of that okay? We're here right now.” As Luke speaks he tilts your head up so you’re looking right at him.

“We’re gonna figure everything out but for now why don’t we go get comfy in bed yeah?” Luke wipes your tears as you nod.

Calum stands up first, picking you up and you bury your face in his neck. You hold onto him tightly as he carries you to the bedroom the three of you share, Luke following behind.

He places you down gently on the bed, letting you get comfortable before he and Luke lay next to you. Small touches are exchanged. Soft kisses, and hands running along your skin. They both speak soft words of affirmation and it’s enough to help you relax.

“I’m sorry I kind of... lost it on you guys.” Your words come out quietly.

“Shh don’t apologize we’re here for you, sweets. Why don’t we take the day tomorrow, just us, yeah?” Cal kissed your cheek a few times as he finished speaking.

“Are you sure? I don’t want to take away from-”Luke cuts you off.

“You’re not taking away from anything, angel. We want to spend time with you.”

You nod and both of your boyfriends hug you tightly. Calum pulls your back flush against his chest, his hand in your hair as Luke rests his head on yours with his arm over your stomach.

“Can we sleep now?” Calum chuckles when you yawn mid-sentence.

“Of course we can, goodnight love.” Luke kisses you after he speaks.

“Mmm goodnight, love you both.”

Calum’s hands were locked on your hips. You could feel him sliding inside of you, deepening his thrusts. He leaned over to bite your shoulder before looking up at Luke. The graze of Calum’s teeth sent electric shocks through your body.

“Enjoying the view?”

Luke had his left hand wrapped around the base of his shaft, eager to get inside of you, too. You watched him run his tip into your bottom lip as Calum fucked you, letting you taste his precum. You opened your mouth for Luke when he started to put light pressure on your lips—taking him in.

You swirled your tongue around the bottom of his shaft. Luke bucked his hips into your mouth. He held your jaw when Calum slapped your backside, anchoring your head as he pushed in a little deeper.

Iris arrived at the airport along with Ashley. Iris rubbed her eyes and stretched. She lets out a groan, sleeping on an airplane seat wasn’t exactly comfortable. Iris's bandmates, Helena, Maia and Julia was making small talks with each other so they can keep up with what's going on. As they waited for their luggage, Iris went to checked on her phone.

10 texts messages from Lemon Boy 2 missed calls from Boatboi and Mikey 1 voicemails from Si<3 20 texts messages from Lukey<3

She listened to Sierra’s voicemail.

"Hey, angel." Sierra said on the voice mail. "I know I'm the last person you want to hear from right now after what happened, and I just want to say that we're both sorry." Sierra said. "I'm sorry I didn't take your side, sorry that I didn't understand from your point of view. I'm sorry for giving up so easily, but I understand if you don't forgive me but at least forgive Luke." she took in a breath. " He’s been beating himself up. And he barely slept. We went to Ashton's and he explained everything to us. We were so foolish for not give you a chance to explain. We're sorry."

Julia, who’s the bassist of her band, turned around to see Iris with tears in her eyes. "Hey, Iris?" she called out. Iris's head shot up, she cleared her throat and wiped away her tears. "Yeah?" she said. " We got your luggage, ready to leave?" Julia said. Iris nodded. "Wanna borrow my sunglasses? It can help cover up... only if you want to." she offered. "Thank you." she said quietly. Iris took the sunglasses. "No problem, bub." Julia beamed, patted Iris in the head. "Now come on, let’s head to the hotel, but let's go greet some fans, first." Helena said. Well, when Helena said "some fans" she meant crowds of people waiting to meet them.

"OH MY GOD! THEY'RE HERE!" "Hey Iris, can I get a picture?' "I LOVE YOU, IRIS" "WE LOVE YOU"

Iris smiled and took a few pictures with them. "uh..I-Iris?" She heard a small voice  muttered out. She turned to see a girl with brown skin and long black hair."Hey sweetie, what's wrong?" she asked. "I-I made you something!" she said as she handed her a bag. Iris took the bag, in it was a painting of Luke, Sierra and her, and other stuff. Her heart ached. She forced a smile, "Oh my god, did you paint this? It's so beautiful!" The girl blushed profusely and nodded. Iris hugged the girl. "Thank you, sweetie. What's your name?" The girl smiled. "Nia, it's Nia." she said. "Well, Nia, thank you again for this beautiful painting! Are you coming to the shows?" Iris asked. "Y-Yeah I'm going to the one tomorrow." Iris hugged her again. "Can't wait to see you tomorrow then!" She smiled and waved goodbye. Helena, after overheard her conversation with Julia earlier, stayed awhile to wait for Iris. “You okay, shortcake?” she asked. Usually, Iris would protest when Helena called her “shortcake”. But she didn’t this time.

*timeskip*

As they reached the hotel, it was midnight. They got their keycard, and told each other goodnight. She unpacked her stuff, placed her guitar and her gift beside the vanity. She took a warm shower, the water cascading down her back, relieving her tense muscles. She dried off and changed into her boy-boxers and oversized hoodie she stole from Luke. She forgotten that she put that in. The smell of cashmere and him filled her senses and she felt her mood dampened.

She unlocked her phone and opened Instagram. She saw that Luke had posted. The caption said:

For Buttercup xoxo.

He was holding his guitar, as he played a rhythm the she recognized, but she couldn’t remember the lyrics. She had heard them boys talking about this before, but never sung it. He looked so tired, she could see the circles underneath his eyes.

Your type of mind, so hard to find, Native of mine, you're just my kind, Down on my knees, I’ll always follow, I promise you until the end of time.

Her heart yearned to hold the man in her arms and forgive him for every wrong he had committed over the past few days. She knew he was hurting. She had avoided his messages because she was too blinded by her own betrayal and sadness to truly realize what her absence had done to the man.

Such a lonely heart, oh woah Such a lonely heart, oh woah If you can't find another reason to stay Then I know I'm gonna always have a lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely Heart, oh woah Heart

He looked physically in pain, yet his emotions was conveyed by the lyrics of the song. Tears fell from her own eyes as she witnessed the man she loved experience such heartache.

Your precious heart, can't watch it break So I close my eyes while you walk away Can I have a second chance? Can I have another dance? Can I start another life, with you? When I wake up in a haze, and I haven't slept in days You're a thousand miles away-

But then she remembered he had hurt her so deeply. But also, she could feel his apology through the verse itself. She knew he wasn't great with words so he'll depend on songs to express what he felt. It was too much. Iris looked away, the sharp pain in her heart gave a shock, her hand reaching up to grasp over her heart. She feels lightheaded. Her chest ached, a heaviness was pressing on her chest. Iris shaked her head, slowly reaching for keycard on her nightstand. Staggering, she stood and made her way to Helena's room. A sob escapes her, her weak attempts of keeping it in failed. "Helena-" she called out. "please...open the door." She curl herself into a ball, tears slipping down her face. She felt the door open. "Iris!" Helena exclaimed.

She open her eyes as Helena's arm wrapped around her, her hand rubbing soothing circles on her back. Maia heard the commotion outside and rushed outside. “What’s wrong?” She asked. She looked at the pair on the floor.  “Hey Iris.” She cooed. “Hey. It’s okay. I’m here. I’m not going anywhere. I’ve got you, okay?” she said. “Iris. Iris, grab my hand.” She look at Helena, confused. "Just do it." She moved her gaze from her hands to Helena's, slowly taking it and holding it in her palm. “Squeeze.” She told her, Iris's eyes drifting up to meet hers. She smiled reassuringly. “Go on. Squeeze as hard as you can.” Iris's tightened her hands around Helena's palm, her eyes still on her face. "Keep going.” She nodded.

“Now match my breathing. In, out. In, out.” Maia whispered, her hand still rubbing circles on Iris’s back. Iris tried to concentrate on the way Maia’s chest, moving up and down, attempting to copy with her own breathing. There’s an overwhelming scent of Luke lingering on every breath she take. “Hey, hey, hey. Focus on me, Iris.” Helena said, snapping Iris out her thoughts, “That’s it. Well done sweetheart, you can do it.” Maia reasurred. They stayed like that for a while; Helena whispering reassurance, Iris’s matching Maia’s breathing. Finally, after what felt like forever, She stopped shaking and her heart rate slowed back down.

"You okay, now? Do you need anything? I could get you water, snacks, anything..?" Maia asked. "Just stay with me, please." She clinged to them ."Alright." She said. "Would you like to tell us what happened?" Helena asked. Iris told them about Luke and about Sierra's voicemail. "He looked so sad, did I mess everything up?" She whispered. "No, Iris. He snapped at you. He should've listened to your reasons before jumping into conclusions like that." Maia reassured. “Look, I want you to stay with me for a little bit, okay?” Iris began shaking her head, ready to pull out of her grasp. “Oh, ‘Lena, no, it’s okay, I ca—” “Iris, please,” Helena begged. “Just for tonight, yeah? You’re not in a right headspace for you to be alone right now.” Iris nibbled on her lip, sniffling and conflicted as she timidly asked, “Are you sure?” Helena nodded firmly. "Alright then." Iris whispered.

"Can you walk?" Maia asked. "I-I think s-so" She said, attempting to stand. The pair supported her back so she could stand. And helped Iris to back to Helena’s bed. "Sit tight, I'll grab some stuff from your room, okay?" Maia asked her. "Okay." Iris mumbled. "Just rest, do you want to postpone the concert tomorrow?" Helena softly asked. Iris rapidly shook her head. "No, no, no. I'll be fine, don't worry. i can do it." she rambled. "Alright, now go get proper sleep." Helena said.

*The next day*

Ashley went to check her phone. There was a text from Ashton.

[7:10 am, 11/10/2019] Ashton 5sos: Hey Ashley

[7:10 am, 11/10/2019] Ashley: Hey Ashton, what's up?

[7:11 am, 11/10/2019] Ashton 5sos: Nothing much

[7:11 am, 11/10/2019] Ashton 5sos: I only wanted to know how is Iris, she doing okay?

Ashley looked at the woman on the bed, She went to check on her in the morning, to find she’s in Helena’s room. Iris was curled up in the covers, her eyes slightly puffy and her cheeks are flushed. But other than that, she sleeping so soundly.

[7:12 am, 11/10/2019] Ashley : She's okay. Helena told me had a breakdown last night but she okay now. She still sleeping though. She said she had pains in her chest, I’m worried.

[7:14 am, 11/10/2019] Ashton 5sos: Oh god, I knew that something was wrong. Is there something I can do to help?

[7:14 am, 11/10/2019] Ashton 5sos: Please tell me, I want to help.

[7:15 am, 11/10/2019] Ashley : I don’t know about that, Ashton. And you're in LA and we're halfway around the world. We went to check up on her, she was burning up.

[7:18 am, 11/10/2019] Ashley: i think she's getting sick.

[7:20 am, 11/10/2019]  Ashton 5sos: But I can fly out there, I can go see her

[7:20 am, 11/10/2019]  Ashton 5sos: I want to see Iris better, she’s like family to me.

Iris stirred, little whimpers could be heard from her. “No……please” she whimpered. Helena shushed her back to sleep.  Ashley lightly felt Iris’s forehead for any signs of fever, and she was unusually warm.

[7:21 am, 11/10/2019] Ashley : Ashton, your band needs you more, you're working on your album. what would your management say, when they finds out that you’re flying out, just for her.

[7:23 am, 11/10/2019] Ashley : I can take care of her, Ashton. Trust me.

[7:24 am, 11/10/2019] Ashton 5sos: The album can wait, we have a lot of time, and the boys, I’m sure that would understand. Fuck the management! I don’t give a damn. I want to know if she’s okay,  I need to see her if she’s physically and mentally okay.

[7:27 am, 11/10/2019] Ashley: Fine, but wait, if she gets worse, you can come and also, don't come to me if Iris starts throwing hands. You know how she is, chaotic yet so kept-together.

[7:30 am, 11/10/2019] Ashton 5sos: I don’t mind if she tries to throw hands, you have no idea how many times she did. But I be glad to see her okay.

[7:30 am, 11/10/2019] Ashley: alright then. Look i have to go, duty calls y'know. See you later, Ashton. I’ll update you if anything happens.

[7:30 am, 11/10/2019]  Ashton 5sos : Alright!  Thank you, Ashley.

[7:33 am, 11/10/2019] Ashley: No problem.

Ashley placed down her phone, sighing.  Iris stirred awake. “ Iris, you’re awake. You feeling better?” Helena said softly, stroking Iris's bed hair so it'll look a little bit neat.  They heard a muffled "yes" from her. “Come on, now, we have an live session to go to” Ashley said. “Oh yeah.” she got up, stretched for a bit and yawned. “Go get ready, We’re leaving in few hours.” Ashley reminded. “Okay, see you then.” Then Iris went back to her room.

Her phone was still on the bed. She switched it on. What greeted her was hundreds of notifications from Twitter and Instagram. Fans tagged her in a news post. 

“TROUBLE IN PARADISE? POLY TRIAD, LUKE HEMMINGS, IRIS ADLER AND SIERRA DEATON, DID THEY BROKE IT OFF? OR SOMETHING REALLY DIFFERENT?”

“Days after the pictures of the lead vocalist of The Temptresses, Iris Josephine Alder, who was assumed to be cheating on her partners, Luke Hemmings from 5 Seconds of Summer and Sierra Deaton, former singer from Alex & Sierra.”

“The lead vocalist of 5SOS posted a 2 minute clip of a new song for their upcoming album, CALM. Following it, was a caption that said, “For Buttercup xoxo.” Is the mysterious “Buttercup” , Iris herself? The rockstar was seen with singer, Halsey at the Heathrow Airport in London the day before for Halsey’s Manic world tour with Iris as the opener.”

Iris scrolled through the news, until one specific line she read struck her hard.

“The couple was seen walking out of Starbuck at Midtown, LA. They looked pretty happy, maybe they would much be better off without Iris-“

Better off without Iris.

Better off without her.

Iris threw her phone at the mattress, rushed to her bag and pulled a flask. She knew it was bad, and Ashton would give her a lecture about it. But she couldn’t resist.  She drank.  When she emptied the flask, she was buzzed. It wasn’t enough but it numbed her for a bit. She prepared herself, slick backed her mullet,  put on light makeup and wore presentable clothes. She chewed on some mints, just to make sure. She was ready.

here's the outfit: 

It slightly covered her neck tattoo, a reminder of them. She wanted to cover up or hide anything that reminded her of them. She couldn't handle the sight. She reminisced the passionate nights they had. The quiet mornings they shared, Iris loved those moments, when she was with them, everything felt right.

*Flashback*

It was December. Snow slowly fall from the sky, Sierra knows just how much Iris adores the snow. They both do. Luke enjoys the way he see the pure amazement light up in her eyes. They stared at her as Iris looked out into the world outside. It like giving a child the gift they always wanted on their birthday. Sierra was the first one to break, she slipped on Iris’s oversized cardigan. Her steps are quiet as she crosses the room to sit beside Iris. “Hey angel” she cooed, her palm caressed her face. Iris’s fluttered shut, her lips curled into soft smile. “Mornin’ Si “  she mumbled, face instinctively nuzzled into her palm.

Luke decides to join them, he put on his sweatpants, and stood behind Iris but his arms snaking around her waist , she shuddered at the coldness of his fingertips. “ You’re freezing, Lu.” She said. “Couldn’t help it, lovey. M’two girls left me to fend the coldness all by m’self” He said as he pouted. “Sorry, Lu” Iris said. She reached out to brush a stray curl behind his ear. “M’can properly see your pretty eyes now, Lu. It’s so blue, like the sea, very pretty.” She rambled. She turned to Sierra, “Your’s pretty too. It reminds me of nature. I wanna paint both of your eyes, but it wouldn’t be the same.” She rambled again. “And why’s that, angel?” Sierra asked, stroking her cheek with thumb. “I couldn’t get the colors just right. Yours, It’s like different shades of browns and blacks. And Luke’s different shades of blue.” She said. “I don’t have the talent to do it either. My skills….they’re mediocre.” She said, her concentration on the subject faltered. Her eyes was glued to the window, watching the snowflakes falling, some sticking to the glass and others falling to cover the ground below.

“Angel?” “Hm?” Her eyes still glued to the snow covered scenery outside. “Look at us, honey.” Luke he asked quietly. Iris looked at them. “Your art skills are extraordinary, don’t ever let yourself down like that.” Luke said.  “That’s right, Lu” Sierra agreed. Iris sheepishly looked away. “Hey, don’t look away..” Sierra cooed. She hooked her finger under Iris’s chin and lifted it up . They both gave her a kiss on her cheek. “Wanna go outside and play with the snow?” Luke said. “Mhm, maybe later. It’s too early in the morning. Wanna spend this moment with m’favorite people.” She whispered. That morning was quiet and peaceful. She would give everything she had to experience it aga-

“Iris.”

*Flashback ends*

“Iris.”

Iris snapped awake from her daydream from the knocking outside her door. "Coming!" She said. Ashley, Helena, Julia and Maia was outside. "We've been calling you for minutes now, you okay?" Ashley asked concernedly. “We almost had to restrain Julia for breaking down the door.” Maia joked. "Just got lost in thought, that's all. Look I'm ready, I just have to grab my bag and guitar, then we'll be off." She rushed into room, shoved her phone into her bag and slunged her guitar over her shoulder.