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The first 10 seconds reminds me of a party girl like you. Then it gets a bit depressing. 

Yus or Nah

I've always known that I am bad at lying. But I am actually really good when it comes to a guy.  You always lie to yourself, when he's really bad for you, you still see good things, "he's going to change" is one of those big fat lies...  "it will get better" it's another one of those. When you know for a fact, it actually won't.

I lived through Hell in name of love, I've woken up in random places only because I was trying to forget my sorrow. I've been beaten up emotionally until it made me numb. Love is the reason of all of our scars.  Memories of our most painful and most beautiful moments in our lives.  I've been a monster to others and left craters in many hearts. And i've learned that pride is just a waste of time when it comes to loving someone. 

Here I confront myself again,  Having a relationship is not an easy task,  everyone has their past and a heavy luggage.  Now, how do you know when you are compatible to someone? Or when it is time to give up? 

He's not as punk as me, he cares maybe way too much. He's lazy and comfortable, things that I completely hate. He likes routine when I try my best to always break it.  He won't skinny dip, or even paddle board with me.  And even tailgating became a sign of a nightmare to this day.  He has hurt me really bad and I don't know if I can forgive him.  He has not giving me the moon or else,  But I know that heart of his is nobody else's but mine. 

Now that I've told you all the bad,  I wouldn't imagine myself having sex with anyone else.  I don't want to give little kisses to anyone else. Because I love his smile, and the way he laughs...  How extremely handsome he looks when he's concentrated... How perfectly comfy his chest is.  I dont want him to make fun of any other girl,  I don't want him to stop teaching me about Punk and Reggae. 

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