#please lmk

everybody knows choso as the school’s plug always surrounded by smoke and rumors, a troublemaker

everybody also knows the sinclair sisters madison sinclair, the perfect girl everyone wants but can’t have, and y/n sinclair, the quiet, cold-hearted girl whose the complete opposite of her sister, who keeps to herself.

the second yuji transfers to the school, he immediately falls for madison. the girl everyone wants but no one can have, mostly because of her strict, overprotective father who believes his daughters should stay pure forever.

when yuji finally befriends madison, she tells him about her father’s rule madison can’t date until you do

the problem? you hate dating. ever since one boy broke your heart, you shut everyone out.

madison is convinced no one will ever go for you anyway, so yuji and megumi come up with a plan. they convince gojo to pay choso to date you so yuji can get with madison.

there’s just one issue.. choso is not your type at all.

he smokes, skips class, sleeps in, and listens to slow music. and you? you’re focused, routine type of girl, girl rock bands, doesn’t care what anyone says. you hate everything he loves.

so when choso starts “changing” because of the whole money thing with gojo, quitting smoking, showing up more, and “randomly” running into you your not going with the flow. you don’t get it. why now? what does he want?

what starts as a fake deal slowly turns real as choso gets to know you. somewhere along the way, the money stops mattering, you start mattering to him.

but with a fake secretive deal with a guy like frat!gojo, things don’t stay secretive for long.

and when you find out choso was paid to be with you, your reminded the reason why you stopped dating.

the only question left is, did any of it mean anything at all? were your assumptions about him right? how will he fix this?

please let me know!! i will make this a series after i finish the smau you guys wanted 🫶🏼

he started drinking to drown out his problems (probably his feelings, really) when he was a young adult (either very late teens or early twenties) and then he became a soulless monster when he was 26, so he tended to kill/torture people instead of feeling things.

then, he gets cursed with a soul, and he learns that no amount of alcohol drowns out almost a century and a half of hurting and killing people.

so, sober and endowed with a conscience, he still has absolutely no clue how to deal with any of his emotions. because he stopped even trying to do that back when he was young.

so, yeah, he’s emotionally stunted and stuck with the mentality of an alcoholic man in his early twenties. it puts a lot of his behavior when he’s with Buffy into perspective, actually.

How dare you show me kindness, old friend? Here, when my hands are still wet with your blood. Now, when there is still air in your dying lungs.

How can you stand it? I knew this day was coming. I didn't understand back then, when I made my plans. I wrote the end of your story before it even began. What was I supposed to tell you? That one day you would die, and it would be my fault? I doubt you would have believed me. Even now, as I plunge my knife into your chest, I don't think you blame me.

This wasn't supposed to hurt. Yet, I'm not sure which one of us this hurts more. It was meant to be just another step in the plan, another meaningless casualty. And yet, you show me gentleness I don't deserve. You see the fear in my eyes, and you show me what to do. You guide my blade into your own heart so that I don't have to do this alone. Your voice is broken, like this strange thing we've built between us. "Let me make this easier for you, my love."

I will never forgive you for loving me.

I will never forgive myself for loving you.

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