#please keep trying

one day it will go in

Gildarts: Hey kids, I know you're struggling right now, but I'm here to tell you that everything gets worse forever.

Y'all needa stop being so negative like,,,,, what the fuck. If people are recovering from any mental illness or self harm dont go and bring that shit back into their life. If people are trying to help you dont just mope and say its impossible. I know a lot of people who do this and i know its the mental disorder not you but like,,,,,you gotta force yourself to get better. I don't mean step outside your comfort zone i mean like. Take care of yourself. Try to maintain hygiene. Try to eat even just a little bit. Drink a sip of water. You don't gotta do everything just take it one step at a time. Do the little shit. You'll find yourself improving before you know it but its not gonna happen if you don't try. Please. Don't say it'll never work. Don't say you're not worth it. You're letting your mental illness get the best of you but it doesn't have to be that way. If you really try fighting it bit by bit, you will get better. You will improve. You will grow. Don't say its not possible or it doesn't work because that hurts people who are recovering and makes them lose hope. Don't bring others down. Please just try to get better please please please nobody deserves to have their life ruined by something entirely out of their control. Take back what's yours. Or at the very least, try.

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It sucks being suicidal for a lot of reasons but I think the one that sticks with me often is my own experience with it in my life. I remember a couple years back when I was working in a bakery I had met this amazing old lady who always came in with her blind husband and always wore a black lives matter pin. She had been such an inspiration for me to wear trans pins to work. I remember vividly the day I learned she had attempted a suicide pact with her husband and the way the news was broke to me. I remember my 40yr old stoner coworker making a fucking joke and pantamiming shooting himself as he told me about how she died and her husband lived and my heart ached so badly for this woman and this man I hardly knew. I'd only met them but three times and yet the influence she had on my life was immense and I think often about how horrible it must have been for her husband to be alone and in pain. It might as well have been yesterday for how well I remember it, when I remember it. That's what I think about everytime I want to die. That this person had such a massive impact on my life and that I'd hardly known her. I think about how much more immense the pain would be for someone close to me and it kills me every fucking time. I know what it feels like to survive through someone's suicide. Its years later and this lady still crosses my mind often. I looked her up once for closures sake and found multiple articles talking about how she was a massive advocate in local politics and honestly it just made me feel worse knowing her better. Your loved ones will never forget your suicide. The pain of losing you will echo in their hearts forever. And frankly it's depressing to me that it takes actually dying for a lot of people to realize how much they miss us.