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i dont know why i procrastinated this but yk

DROIDDDDDDD!!!

comms open you should check that out ykyk heh../silly

oh yeah its also his birthday GO WISH HIM A HAPPY BDAY NOWWWW

@/jayflys00

its so cool seeing people i look up to interacting with my posts AFSHGWHWHSH

ty ALL for your support, genuinely

difficult post to say the least and i apologize this strays from my normal content very VERY rapidly.

Uhm please don’t read if you have issues hearing/reading about abuse (specifically mental, emotional, financial, and very brief physical), severe neglect, mental hospitals and suicidal themes

your mental health matters more than i need to get this out of here

I have less than 9 months to build up the funds to be able to survive, as i turn 18 on April 27th, 2027. I plan on leaving as soon as physically poss as my household is severely toxic and unhealthy to be in, ive been a victim of physical violence under these roofs and i cannot do anything about it as it was my mothers boyfriend who has done and threatened to do so. My mother sides with him, every time, and told me that im over reacting because he didnt actually beat me even though hes threatened to several times. The first time he hurt me was when i was 9 years old, he slammed me against the wall by my neck and screamed in my face before waltzing off. CPS in my area doesnt do anything to help, they’ve been called before. Ive also been denied basic medical care for nearly 5 years now, as my chronic pain has gone untreated and ive had to endure barely being able to function most days alone as my mother says that “im just not stretching enough” and she doesnt care how many times i ask for help, another instance of her medical neglect was when i fractured my wrist, part of the bone chipped too, but she went to the gas station then back to our house before reluctantly taking me, but complained the whole car ride there, saying i was over reacting because i was clutching my arm to my chest and sobbing because i genuinely couldnt move it without screaming and sobbing even more. after that, i was put in a brace, and she told me several times to take it off because it wasnt that bad and bitched when i had it on longer than the recommended time. The bone didnt heal properly even with my best efforts so it still causes me pain almost a year later. ive been denied going to the hospital for several concussions, saying that im over reacting.

She has also talked badly about me going to a mental hospital back in September of last year as i was “being an attention whore” and “faking it just so i felt special” and was disregarding me when we did talk to eachother, and telling my psychologist to not give me any medication even though i was hallucinating horribly, she doesnt believe in my depression, my suicidal tendencies, or anything on those accords about me because im just “faking it” and “i dont know what its like to be her” and has actively dismissed my real DIAGNOSED disorders as “doctors will do anything for a check”

Whenever i have money, she talks to me all sweetly then drops she needs the money for whatever reason, “borrowing it”, then waits as long as possible before returning it to me, and even then, shes guilted me into just giving her money without the “borrowing”, complaining about how no one loves her and no one helps her, and shes been making me financially responsible for helping “keep the house afloat” whenever she spends too much of her money on whatever she does.

Shes been trying to break me down mentally since i was 10, and has failed, which has made her incredibly manipulative and aggressive whenever i “go against what she wants”, and sits me down and lectures (yells) at me, the minimum of this is 30 minutes with the maximum being 2 hours, and if i try and leave before shes done, i get grounded and she takes all of my stuff until she deems it worthy that i have “deserved” it back

Shes also incredibly homophobic, transphobic, and racist. She said the n-word (hard r) recently, says the n word, dates a very very racist man (her boyfriend), and does nothing because “she hasnt used it in a harmful context”. She doesnt like the fact im not straight or cis at all, thinking i was brainwashed and in a phase, and has told me to my face that she “knows im lying to myself to spite her”

She trauma dumps to me whenever we argue, shes told me things i wont repeat here because despite everything, i still have some love for her, but its messed me up. shes been doing this since i was 13, using her trauma to silence me and it works. every time, and i hate that it does.

Theres so much more i just,, this is already getting long.

The reason im opening up and being so uh vulnerable is because im effectively, permanently, and will be systematically opening emergency commissions that will be open until i can get enough money to get the fuck out of this hell hole

I take Cashapp and Venmo mainly, i think i can also do paypal but im not sure how viable that’d be (/lh)

(Prices are negotiable, and tips are not expected but they are heavily appreciated/gen)

ヮ PRICES !!

*TRADITIONAL AND DIGITAL NOW AVAILABLE!!*

˚ Bust/Icon

* Traditional: $10

* Digital: $15

. Half Body

. Traditional: $15

. Digital: $20

ᵎᵎ Full Body

ᵎᵎ Traditional: $20

ᵎᵎ Digital: $25

> Chibi

> Traditional: $10

> Digital: $15

DOODLE PAGES ARE AVAILABLE STARTING AT $25 DIGITALLY AND $20 TRADITIONALLY

COMIC PANELS ALSO AVAILABLE MINIMUM $10 PER PANNEL / STRIP

Terms and conditions:

* !! USD ONLY !!

* Full payment before starting.

* References would be greatly appreciated.

* If you are submitting a reason along with the money transfer do NOT make it anything serious. It puts me at a major risk , please do something silly like “the sheeple” or “subway surfers ahh” literally anything goes if its silly.

* Additional characters are 50% off the original price.

* NO REFUNDS. I NEED THE MONEY

* TAT - 2-3 Days on average!! (will inform if longer though)

STUFF I CAN DO! :

ocs

ships, fanarts

yumeships/selfships

furries

slight mecha

multiple characters

complex stuff (backgrounds, designs, ect) *will take longer however!*

STUFF I CANT DO!:

realism

heavy mechas w/ a deadline (i can do mecha just not with a deadline)

NSFW

Anything hateful (n4zi, r4cism, ect)

Thank you for reading this all, it means alot, and if you cant commission thats perfectly fine! all i ask is to engage with this post so i can get it to reach more out

(i will be reblogging this post with just the prices and more art examples just incase anyone with the previously stated triggers arent able to read this!)

OG POST

I take Cashapp and Venmo mainly, i think i can also do paypal but im not sure how viable that’d be (/lh)

(Prices are negotiable, and tips are not expected but they are heavily appreciated/gen)

ヮ PRICES !!

*TRADITIONAL AND DIGITAL NOW AVAILABLE!!*

˚ Bust/Icon

* Traditional: $10

* Digital: $15

. Half Body

. Traditional: $15

. Digital: $20

ᵎᵎ Full Body

ᵎᵎ Traditional: $20

ᵎᵎ Digital: $25

> Chibi

> Traditional: $10

> Digital: $15

DOODLE PAGES ARE AVAILABLE STARTING AT $25 DIGITALLY AND $20 TRADITIONALLY

COMIC PANELS ALSO AVAILABLE MINIMUM $10 PER PANNEL / STRIP

Terms and conditions:

* !! USD ONLY !!

* Full payment before starting.

* References would be greatly appreciated.

* If you are submitting a reason along with the money transfer do NOT make it anything serious. It puts me at a major risk , please do something silly like “the sheeple” or “subway surfers ahh” literally anything goes if its silly.

* Additional characters are 50% off the original price.

* NO REFUNDS. I NEED THE MONEY

* TAT - 2-3 Days on average!! (will inform if longer though)

STUFF I CAN DO! :

ocs

ships, fanarts

yumeships/selfships

furries

slight mecha

multiple characters

complex stuff (backgrounds, designs, ect) *will take longer however!*

STUFF I CANT DO!:

realism

heavy mechas w/ a deadline (i can do mecha just not with a deadline)

NSFW

Anything hateful (n4zi, r4cism, ect)

Thank you for reading this all, it means alot, and if you cant commission thats perfectly fine! all i ask is to engage with this post so i can get it to reach more out

(i reposted the prices again just incase anyone with the previously stated triggers arent able to read the og post!)

To be honest, i didnt expect to be a recognizable person in the fanart community, even if its such a small corner, i was expecting to be just invisible (no shade towards anyone) due to me being socially awkward, my art not being as cool as other fanartists, and the fact that i am at a really awkward age for being a frouse fan (17, woo) almost everyone is an adult, and i get nervous due to the fact people may baby/belittle me due to the fact im not as “grown”

to be proven wrong is such a fucking blessing though, people actually engage with my posts and LIKE how i design stuff, so it means sosososoos much. on here and on tiktok, yalls support is genuinely so sweet, and i thank everyone of the people ive interacted with for giving me the motivation to continue doing what i do as a fanartist, and as a person who wants to start content creation along side my fanart series

dude auwagshshsh tytytyty all oh my god i feel so overwhelmed by support ive honestly almost cried at how greatful i am several times.

like i said in this post due to the overwhelming support, i will be doing a art raffle in my own server, as a thanks to everyone who supports me (2k followers on tiktok soon dude oh my god im so excited and shocked like?? how me?? <_<)

/vvpos/gen