I am not okay. Everything is wrong. Nothing is okay.
I miss you, @pikachupacabras. I love you. I always will. Nothing can or will change that, or what you meant to me.
I don’t know what to do next. Or how to do anything next. I don’t know anything, right now.
I’m surrounded by our dogs, and all I can think is that the room, the house, my life - are all empty. You gave depth and magnitude to everything that’s now missing.
I don’t know that I’ll ever find it again, that life will ever be that deep or meaningful or important again, but I do know that I will try to carry that depth and meaning and magnitude with me for the rest of my life.
I love you.


















