#piems

can we still be friends

“I remember I used to look at you in a brilliant light,
when you first kissed me I knew we would be something special,
I would tame your nightmares and you would silence my demons,
every time you took my hand I felt electricity shoot up my veins,
you painted beautiful pieces in my sky,
blues and violets, 
expressing your love for me within this galaxy,
I finally had someone who let my beauty unfold,
who was there for me when I was too fragile for this universe,
I was getting better,
but then, 
I don’t remember how,
I just remember you seemed to shut down,
you began to drag me down and insult me with every step I took,
I tried convincing myself it was still you behind those eyes,
that one day you would come back,
but as time went on you proved my hope wrong,
you betrayed my trust when you went with someone else,
but even then I still held on to a small shred that you were still the one I met all those months ago,
the sweet and caring boy who would hold me on the bad nights,
who would whisper the words which were my cure,
and once again,
It didn’t work,
because that boy who I had fallen in love with,
the one I have so many incredible and unforgettable memories with,
hit me so hard I started crying,
bashed my head against the wall and I almost blacked out,
and when that wasn’t enough,
he took his hands up to my throat,
the moment he let go,
I let go of all hope that the real him would be back.”